sometimes i can't feel anything.
sometimes i feel everything.
sometimes i'm overwhelmingly anxious.
sometimes i'm out of control.
sometimes i feel so alive.
sometimes i just want to die.
sometimes i don't know what's happening.
sometimes i know everything.
sometimes i can't seem to grasp reality.
sometimes reality comes crashing down.
sometimes i lay in bed at night and think about what would happen if i disappeared,
about what would happen if i just gave up.
about what would happen if i was no longer here.
but only sometimes.
