Only A Surrogate

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"I'm so sorry Ms. Evans but I am am not very pleased to tell you this. Although there are others ways to go around this problem, I can guide you into the direction of help but there is nothing else I can do for you." My Obstetrician tells me.

"Ms. woods, this cant be possible." I say as a tear falls down my face. I didn't even realize I was crying. Khalid's face was turned upside down and I could tell he was not only angry but also hurt.

"After running some test we confirmed it. When you first came in telling me the symptoms and things that had happened I knew right off the back what it was. I'm sorry, you cant have children Ms. Evans. But if you are still wanting to go about this in a different way I could direct you to some good surrogacy programs and maybe even adopting a child would strike your interest. But there is nothing else I can do." I was froze. I couldn't even more my head to notify her that I was listening. The words coming out of her mouth seemed so unreal.

Why me? That's the only thing that replayed in my head over and over again. Khalid got up and walked out of the room I didn't even realize that he was crying. Ms. Woods handed me a tissue box before saying her goodbyes and thanking me for the opportunity to treat me. She sat a few pamphlets beside me and walked out of the room.

I was no longer hurt but I was full of anger. Wondering what I had done to make this happen to me. I have been nothing but a good person in life but I still got the other end of the stick. I wiped my face of tears, grabbed my purse placing the pamphlets inside it, and walked out of the doctors office.

When I got outside I seen Khalid leaning on the car. He had his phone out with his face into it as if he was glued to it. Once I reached him, he put the phone in his pocket.

"You ready?" he said walking around to the passenger side of the car opening the door.

I just nodded. He opened the door and closed it once I got in. I felt as if the whole world has suddenly crashed on my shoulders. The ride home was quiet. I only wanted to sleep this pain away. I didn't want to eat, drink, or talk. I didn't have enough courage to call my mom and tell her what had happened.

I woke up and checked the time. I had slept the whole day away. It was now 11:38. I watched the room door open.

"I've been waiting for you to wake up. Are you hungry? Do you want take out or do you want it delivered?" Khalid stood there talking to me but I didn't respond. It was like I was angry with him too, I have no idea as to why I was but I was. I felt pity within myself. He wanted a child and I couldn't give him that. I was mad at him for being mad at me. He didn't show that he was mad at me for not being able to give him a child but I knew he was angry with me about it. He probably thought I was useless.

"Bae. Talk to me. We supposed to be in this together Janae" I still said nothing. He closed the door after a while and I heard the front door slam seconds later.

Khalid

I grabbed my keys and left. I knew that if she wasn't talking to me now then she wouldn't talk to me for a long time.

"Wassup. I'm finna come through. Unlock the door." I hung up the phone after that.

I know this ain't right but what do she expect? We both going through it and she not even talking to me. I ain't gone say it's her fault that i'm confiding in another woman because it's not but if she would do her job then I wouldn't have to do this. I regretted thinking that right after I thought it. It was not Janae's fault. She had done nothing wrong.

It took me about 15 minutes to get to her house since I stay on the other side of town. When I finally got there the door was unlocked like I asked so I walked right in.