Unforgettable

The beginning to my undoing.

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The rain on my window is relentless on its mission to wake me up from my slumber. I open my eye trying to make what I'm seeing a bit more visible. My dark green curtains cover the barely visible light that flows through the crack. Meaning ...... It's time to get up. Damn it.  I slowly turn my body around hoping my alarm doesn't say 7.30. Halfway through my slowly action... I see my phone screen light up.
Mom- Good Luck Baby!!!

Shit.... It's that day. The one I've Been dreading. The day. That I know will go absolutely wrong. I'm a walking Magnet for anything that could possibly end in chaos. I have only been awake for 1 minute and already have a bad vibe. My therapist was right I'm a negative Nelly. She mentioned something along those lines, not that I cared. When my mother first took me there I Swore her degree she proudly hung on her wall said quicklicence.com.

I finally managed to hop out of bed and put some decent clothes on. I'm. Sitting on the kitchen counter eating a bowl of cereal the one that will kill diabetics the fastest. ... Hopefully. I need to get out of this state of ..... Living as fast as possible. Or at Least, until my first day.
       Sitting at home in silence was something I was used to. My parents. Had started leaving me home alone as soon as we moved out here from Baldwin Park. The town where I grew up. The place where I learned it wasn't right too confront mommy about what really happened while she's telling her friends a story of what happened at some stupid Social gathering she decided to drag me too. The town where broken car glass scattered the driveway from the time my mom pissed off the wrong person. The place where that teenage kid thought he should just take away something that I would eventually give to my husband on my wedding night. Sure i had a sad childhood, but it was still my home. Its all i knew. its where  my best friend was.  I was left in this big house with my own haunting feelings. The feelings that I  can hide the best.
  I can hear the neighbors music from my cold spot on the counter.  I  really should be going.  I don't want to be late too my first day on the  job. No matter how much Im dreading this. Maybe Max can cheer me up once i go on my break. which i think is only 30 min.

I arrive to the market on 50th  and Ave. N and I'm super nervous not to mention some asshole cut me off on the way here. I remind myself  that I have a boyfriend and that work relationships never work out. They always end up nasty  and uncomfortable.  Ive seen  my mother go through countless work relationships friendly and romantic..... neither of them ended upper well. So its best to keep to myself and not saying a word to anyone unless they are your bosses or your customers.

I walk in through the screechy sliding doors that seem to be partially broken.  I set my eyes straight to the little office in the corner. Ready to hand in the papers I received at training and I am ready for this. Feeling confident I walk  into the small hot office, though I come to discover  that no one is there. A young girl startles me and then proceeds to introduce herself as the one who will be training me an showing me around. I become quickly excited  but,  was we continue on with the shift she proceeds to tell me that, all she does is collect carts which, we already  covered in corporate  training. 

  I eventually find out the girls name is Mia. We are walking through the isles and she suddenly stops. She turns to me. She looks at me and whispers, "Be careful with who you decide to trust here, I keep to myself I suggest you do the same." I'm not sure what to  make of with this piece of advice. But I'm sure she means well, after all I'm always careful.

         I expected my day to be learning things... all she really 'taught' me were things that were already thoroughly taught to me and two other new hires. That's okay though, she used up my entirely shift and i didn't really have to do anything. At the end of my shift i begin to gather my things and proceed to make my way to the exit, when suddenly i bump into someone. I must have fallen  on my ass because when I look up I see someone with raven dark hair, big glasses, and under his big leather jacket he wore the same red uniform I was wearing . He helps me up and continues on into the store. He looks angry. Not my problem!!!!

       I make my way out of the store parking lot excited to get home and change out of these ridiculous clothes. As I pull in my driveway I realize once again...... I'm home alone.