The broken

Chapter 2

Lara looked at the blond haired boy in front of her. His chest was rising fast and she could hear how uneven his breath was. It was clearly  his first  time on a plane.

" Hey," Lara whispered and put her hand on Newts shoulder. He looked up at her with terrified eyes and swallowed. " It's okey..." Newt nodded but he didn't looked that convinced. It would take them a couple of hours to get back from London to the United States but it would be fine.

" Nothing bad is going to happen," Her voice was soft and comforting, Newt tried to relax but he was still terrified. He had never liked heights. Especially not since...well...his little "accident". That just fucked up his leg and made him even more broken than he already was. He couldn't even look out from a window on a higher level without having flashbacks from his attempt. It would haunt him to the end of his days...

" Newt, are you okay?" Newt hadn't realized that his breathing had become faster and he was practically gasping for air. His lungs felt like they were on fire and black spots started to cover his gaze. " Newt, What is happening?" Lara panicked and she had no idea what to do. Was this a panic attack?

" G-give me...t-the back," Newt croaked out. " W-with med...medicine..." Lara quickly opened her purse and took out the small, red bag. It was full of his pills for Newts depression, anxiety, panic attacks, insomnia and probably more things that Lara couldn't remember. She felt terrified of what was going on with Newt and she quickly unzipped the bag and looked through all the pills and inhalers.

" Which one do you need?" She asked and she couldn't hide how panicked she was right now. That had happened before to Newt so he wasn't worried. The first time it had happened he had passed out, the second time he passed out again, the third time he had gotten his inhaler so he had control over the situation. Newt was used to it, it was still painful and terrible, but not as much as before.

But Newt hadn't felt a panic attack this big for a long time. His lungs couldn't get any oxygen and his head was spinning. He was afraid of passing out on the plane. That would be too embarrassing to handle.

" I-it's the...inh...inhaler," Newt finally croaked out. He closed his eyes and tried to steady his breathing but he couldn't do it.

Lara freaked out when the blond haired boy beside her closed his eyes. She didn't know what to do. A flight attendant was walking closer to them and she had a frown on her face. Lara finally found the white and blue inhaler and with trembling hands she turned back to Newt.

" I got it!" She said, her voice much lighter than it used to be. Newt opened his eyes and grabbed the inhaler before putting it against his mouth. Finally he could take a deep breath and was such a relive to feel the oxygen in his lungs again. Lara let out a breath she didn't tanked that she had been holding and blinked away the tears that he formed in her eyes.

" Are you okay?" She asked. Newt nodded but he still looked chocked of what had just happened. When Lara looked at her other side, she saw that the flight attendant stood there with a concerned facial expression.

" Ms, is everything alright?" She asked. Lara nodded and smiled apologetic to the woman.

" Yeah, it's okay now," She said and looked over at Newt again. The flight attendant nodded but didn't looked that convinced. She started to walk away. Lara looked at Newt and her heart broke when she saw the tears in his eyes. " You're not okay, aren't you.." It wasn't a question, it was a statement. Newt looked down on his lap and didn't answer her. Lara knew that this probably was hard to talk about but he needed to tell her everything. He was a part of her family now and it was Lara's responsibility to keep him safe.

" Please, I need you to tell me..." The plane flew into a turbulence and the blond boy beside Lara grabbed his seat so hard that his knuckles turned white. When it stopped Lara was still staring at him. Newt looked up again but his eyes wouldn't meet her's.