glass | l.h

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; gif of lukey on the side yo ;

s a s h a

"leave me alone!" i yelled,
my hands housing my ears and
my knees position on my chest,
basically digging into my skin.

i didn't know why they did this,
they killed me in every way possible.

the demons,
they're going to be the death of me.

the monsters under my bed
are friendlier than the ones
inside me.

i didn't know how they, or why they
save me from ending it all.

every time, every fucking time
i tried to do it, they save me.

it seems as if they don't want me to,
they want to kill me, instead of myself.
what's the point?

they say i'm good for nothing anyway,
why do they keep on saving me?

"it's your fault! it's all yours!"

they told me this daily, i didn't know
what i did nor why
they said this.

"i haven't done anything!" i coudn't hold
it any longer, i fell into sobs.

it felt as if i was almost drowning
myself.

my breathing became heavy
and my blood started to boil.

i decided to cool off,
go out to get my mind off
of things.

get away from this hell,
aka my apartment.

my head was pounding,
my heart was throbbing.

i scrambled to my feet, from where i
sat in the corner of my room.

pathetic, that pretty much
sums me up.

i walked through the white walls,
grasping them as i stumbled through.

i slowly paced into the bathroom, peering
into the large mirror.

only to
see
my
enemy.

the dark circles under my eyes seemed to
look darker then usual.

i furrowed my thin eyebrows,
wiping under my eyes to clean
away the left over mascara.

i gave up on trying to please
someone.

no one would notice anyway.

[a/n hii, if you're having a bad day, and it's your birthday today, happy birthday☺. if it's not happy existing day, stay strong.. also, dedicated to alicefangirls bc she is lovely]