Dear Pluto
I'm planning on ending my life today. I've had too much heartbreak, too much pain, and I can't cope anymore. The one person I want in my life, who said he loved me, and always would, might like someone else. He doesn't even know.
So yeah. He's my all, my life, and, if he's not mine, then I'm nowhere, I'm nobody's.
I'm sick of the pain I feel when I breathe. I'm sick of crying all the time. You have to tell me you understand? Because, I feel like I have no other option. I'm so scared, so scared of life, of death, of the pain that I'm feeling. And, it is tearing me apart.
I want to help as many people as I can before I do it, so, idk, message me if you need/want help, support, some affection, okay, because I love you.
I feel so much pain I'm almost numb. Almost, but not quite.
Nobody understands what's happening to me, and that's me included. I'm so low, all of the time. He was saving me. It's like he was pulling me out of the hole I was stuck in, he got me almost all the way out, then he spat in my face and pushed me back down again. I've never felt so alone.
He told me he loved me, but I think it was a lie. It's always a lie.
Anyway, I guess this is probably goodbye.
I love you, so so much. Stay safe, and stay happy.
All my love,
Rue
