september 8,2018
6:47 pm.
im shaking. my body is aching. the lids of my eyes are falling like the organ that danced so violently in my chest and now its gone. it used to be filled with so much happiness. and joy. peace, light and love. emitting sun rays from my body that I was blind to until you came into my life. every flower in my garden had bloomed. nourished and fruitful they became. I was at peace. the water they drank was bittersweet, it was. it tasted like peach vodka. sweet as honey, but tearing my insides with every sip. but I didnt mind. everyone was telling me it was going to break me into pieces but I wasn't listening. because I knew that with every piece that fell from my body you would have came and sewn it back together like a rip in my jeans. or at least I thought. they multiplied and multiplied until I was swimming in my own despair and I cant get the water out of my ears and all I hear is white noise. i'm confused.
