Characterizations

Cole

It's hard to be sad so often.

I don't like seeing you sad so often.

He's not here

he's not here

leave him alone in your mind.

I have so much on my mind that i cant

cant always say

sometimes it's hard to find the words.

i see you in tears

bleeding

and not always just 

on your hands from protecting me, 

protecting us all

but in your words

in your letters.

you don't deserve that pain,

please, i don't want to see you in pain.

put the letters away, hide them away.

put away his words

because he's not coming back.

but i guess i don't understand what it's like

to lose a person like that

like you suddenly dropped your keys down the drain

and they're gone, unexpectedly, 

so with that panic in your chest 

you try to find them everywhere you are.

i've never really had that before in my life.

life.

it's been a blur

a repetitive blur

and now it's all going in a strange slow motion

especially when our fingers are intertwined.

i have struggled with these notion for years:

love

death

pain.

I don't know.

It's all so much.

I want to be a poet and write it all down, 

and make sense of the nonsense in my head.

Because sometimes I'll be looking at you and your gray eyes and they look like the stormy sky and then i wonder if it's going to rain so i look up but the gray sky makes me think of your eyes and then the rain and then you'll cry and your tears will look like the rain and i turn around and there you are

my best friend.

and there are tears.

i'll heal you

if it's the last thing i do.

because I am a true romantic

and so are you

but not for me.