I'm sorry, for those 6 years that I loved you.
From elementary to high school I loved you. I know that all those years that it was just a one-sided love. But can you blame a girl for clinging on to a very tiny string of hope? A hope that there may have been a chance that you would like me too. I know now I was a burden to you and I'm sorry. Everyone in our class knew I liked you and I now see that. I have always thought that I was good at hiding my feelings but now that I'm older I know that I wear my heart on my sleeve.
Can you accept my apology for all those years?
I would like you to know the reasons why I loved you. I loved your blonde hair that I wish I could have combed my hands through. Your smile that showed a dimple in your cheek. Your athletic build that I had wished at one point that I could hug and cuddle. I loved that you were smart and funny. That you were nerdy at times. You liked history, art, and you loved playing video games. I also liked art and playing video games. Yeah, sometimes you could be cocky but you were such a sweet guy at heart. You like animals just like I do. You were athletic and loved playing many sports. Just like I loved playing sports.
Through those 6 years, I wish you had seen me as someone you liked. I wished that you could have gotten to know me as a person and not just judge me by my appearance. I know that I'm overweight but we also deserve to be loved. In our school halls when you walked past me, you made my heart skip a beat. It made me excited when we were in the same classes together. I also really enjoyed that one time we were in a group project together. But you never saw me for who I was as a person, but what your friends saw me as.
I'm sorry for all those years that I put you through my unrequited love for you. But I'm also sorry for myself, for I had wasted 6 years of my youth on my love for you.
The last thing that I want you to know is that I've moved on from you. I no longer think of you throughout my days. But I will always remember you as my first love and I will always cherish that.
