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Virtual Reality?

                                                                                 AXEL'S P.O.V.

                       "Axel, why can't you just fucking leave already!" I heard my mom yell at me yet again as I was getting ready for school. I just held my feelings in and kept quiet quickly trying to just get the hell out of here as fast as I possibly could. I didn't want to be there when my dad got home anyway. He would have just ended up hitting me or yelling at me as soon as he walked through that door. 

    I couldn't deal with school today or any day so I just skipped like I always do and went to the skatepark where I at least know I was safe. I made sure to bring my skateboard but being someone who had no friends and no life didn't make anything any better. My brother was all I had in this world and even most the time he hated me. Everyone hated me, that's just how it always was. I was never good enough for anyone and never will be. It's like I don't exist at home or at school or anywhere. 

     That's when Ryan, the worlds worst asshole came up to me and I knew he just wanted to start shit with me "what do you want, Ryan?" I say with an attitude. "Nothing with you, fag. Why don't you get out of here while you still can." 

     "You don't own this fucking place, so stop acting like you do." I should have kept my mouth shut, but I didn't really know how to. He came up to me and pushed me down. I got up and punched him, but I was nowhere near how big he was so when he punched me I fell back down. I couldn't get up this time. "That will teach you a lesson faggot, now go before I don't let you leave that easily." I slowly get up and run away from him and his little gang. I've never been so done with life than I am today. 

   I had no one. I had nothing besides my music. That's all I mostly did was walk around town and listen to my music, what else is there to do in a place where you're hated. 

     I slip in my earphones and play some Lauv as I walk into the woods to the river nearby. It was beautiful here and it was a place I could call my own. No one ever came here and nobody even knew of this place besides me. I laid down in the grass and closed my eyes.

   I opened my eyes and quickly looked at the time "Fuck!" I must have fallen asleep because it was almost 4 in the afternoon. I hurriedly ran to my house, trying not to trip over the rocks and other shit. If I wasn't home, they would kill me. I had to get my brother off the bus and if I missed it he would for sure tell on me. 

   Just as I got to the end of the road, I saw the bus pull up and luckily I could run really fast that I made it just in time as my brother was getting right off the bus "hey, Blare!" I smiled at him and he just had no interest at all in me which kind of hurt. "Don't talk to me." He ran to the house and just like that I was alone again. If he only knew how much I loved him. We haven't been close since the last fight that I got into with my mom about leaving my dad. He thinks they shouldn't be apart, but he's not the one they're constantly abusing or treating like shit. Most of the time he's away with my grandmother and I'm stuck in this shit hole. 

     I went into the house to my room as quick as possible, locking the door. I laid on my bed just thinking about my life and everything.

    If I could just have one person who truly understood me and actually cared for me everything would be perfect. I prayed that I could just meet that one. I didn't even want to be in this world anymore. I didn't serve a purpose. No one wanted me here anyway. 

    I went on my phone to change the song that was on, putting the other earphone that I pulled out back into my ear in. "Stupid phone," I muttered under my breath as it made me update the app I was using for my music. It was just at that moment I saw on popular apps something called "Personal Holding" me, wanting to know what it is. I clicked on it. It was a game where you could meet and chat with people just like you, I guess. Well, at least that's what it said. 

    I was curious about it so I decided there was no pain in just installing it to see what it was about. 

   As I waited for it to be done, I read reviews and as soon as it was done I had already opened it and started creating my account. 

   Of course, I had no idea what I was doing. All I saw was that I was in need of some new clothes because this starter outfit was uglier than the clothes I even had on in real life and that's saying something. I changed into something nice that cost a lot of my coins and then went into one of the chatrooms. I immediately started getting friend requests and messages. I smiled, but as I was talking to half of these people. They were nothing like me. They were just like everyone that I already knew in this town so I just got off and rested for a few. This was pointless. Everything was and I don't know why I even tried. Should I just give up? I asked myself.