The time i was taken advantage of

Samuel Riley

His name is engraved in my head. I try so hard to forget but what he did will never leave my mind.

He seemed so nice and kind. We had fights all the time tho. He always wanted naked pictures but I said no. He kept insisting. I told him I would leave him if he didn't quit so he stopped.. For a while.

It happened again. He started his routine of getting home from school and asked for more.

We hadn't had your first date yet. Maybe hanging out with him outside of school would help him see that I really just want to be close but not sexually.

Me and my mom arrange a date. She decides to drop us off in a shopping plaza while she got stuff done. 

Sounded great. I told him and he thought it was a great idea. I thought it was great too until he started talking about how many places we could hide in and what we would do to each other.

I thought it was just another sexual roleplay thing that we did. His words got more descriptive. He was more and more eagar to go on this date.

The day had come. My mother had drove off after dropping us off in the plaza. Seemed simple enough. We held hands, made joke, ate some weird jelly beans. Everything seemed fine.

We guys were in the furniture store now after eating all the jelly beans. He says that we should sit on one of the couches in an aisle in the back.

I agree thinking that we were just gonna cuddle or something. Then once you sit down next to him, he leans over and kisses me. One thing leads to another and we start making out.

I get scared and worried but then you think about how this happened at the winter formal so it should be fine.

We make out for a bit and he starts to caress my body. It seemed so natural and fluid. I'm starting to get kinda bored now but he seems really happy.

I sit up and tell him "maybe we should stop. Other people could come by" while he tries to pull me back in. He says its fine and I look around and there is no one so I kinda believe him but I'm still worried.

Things get more aggressive. He slide his hands down my body and down into my underwear. He rubs me inappropriately. I try to stop making out with him to tell him to stop but he pulls me closer and harder. He is fingering me now on this nasty tan couch that plenty of other people have definitely sat on.

You finally manage to pull back and say "OK stop I really don't wanna do this" and I try to convince him and say "I dont want this. I would look like a hoe. This is only our first date". But he insists by telling me "no its fine. You have known me for long enough. Its what we talked remember". I thought he was just saying the stuff as a story.

While saying multiple times to stop I couldn't help but think "why isn't anyone coming over here. Please someone help me". But my body couldn't utters the words with him tongue down my throat.

Finally after a couple painfully terrifying mintues that felt like life times, we start to hear someone walking over. He stops and looks at me with a smile on his face.

"Bet that felt great didnt it" like as if he should win a trophy for what he has now caused. I ignore the question and say "maybe we should leave this area. Someone is walking over here". So I get up from my uncomfortable position and I walk away without even looking at him.

He gathers himself and walks up next to me. He holds my hand with hand he used to hold me onto him as he licks his fingers in my face and winks like if this was some kind of honorable moment in his world.

The rest of the time spent together was very uncomfortable. Awkward laugh, cheesy smiles at stupid jokes, everything felt so wrong.

My mom ends up picking us up and dropping him off at his house. He asks for a hug and the embrace that came after felt like tight cold chains wrapping my up in a knot. He let's go and walks up to his house.

After the long painful drive, without saying anything to anyone, I go to my room and cry. I could think of anything but those awful few minutes in the horrible furniture store.

Who ever is reading this, I hope this tell you that not all people are the same. Some will hurt you or use you or lie to you. Some will abuse you and treat you like trash. When your looking for someone to cherish and keep forever just remember, not everyone understands the word "no".

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Sorry if this is sloppy. I am writing this really late at night and my head is filled with a lot of thoughts. I hope people can read this and use it as a learning experience. Please dont be as foolish as I was.