Amnesia // Daniel Seavey

Part 1

it only took one second for my world to fall apart right in front of my very eyes. cassy was my whole life, my whole world, everything i did was because of that beautiful, sweet, loving, perfect woman. 

i had been watching some stupid netflix show with my good friends jonah and jack when my phone began ringing. it was an unknown number, something i would usually take no notice to, but this time i felt like i had to answer it. when i did my heart nearly stopped, my beautiful cassy had been in the hospital. i'll never truly know what happened, cassy and her friend had gone for a hike and there was some sort of accident. i rushed to the hospital fear filling every vein and bone in my body. thoughts of the worst possibilities filled my mind.

"i'm here for cassidey rose." my voice was shaky and low, i thought that maybe she hadn't heard me.  she looked up from the computer she was typing at and gave me a sad smile. 

"honey she's in surgery right now, she should be out soon and even then you can't see her unless you're family."

"she's my girlfriend, you have to let me see her." i begged not knowing how well i'd do if they didn't let me see the love of my life. 

"yeah okay, just say you're family it'll be okay." 

"thank you, thank you, thank you." i was and will forever be grateful for her empathy. 

i waited for what felt like hours, i felt as though i was going crazy. finally, a doctor came out looking for me, the nurse pointed my way. i was told i could see her but she had been in a coma. it was like my worst nightmare had crawled out from my dreams and consumed my whole life. walking to the room the doctor had told me she was in was the scariest moment of my life, not knowing if she was going to be okay ate me up inside. 

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i sat there, her lifeless hand in mine every day for a month. she slowly showed signs of improvement, and one day i had gone to her room and she was awake. a dream come true.

"cassy." i ran to her bed, excitement and joy filled the room. she turned to me, confusion filling her usually bright green eyes. i hadn't taken notice to her disorientation as i planted a kiss on her forehead. she pushed me away.

"what the fuck, do i know you?" she sounded rather angry. the question broke my heart in ways i never thought a heart could be broken. how could she forget me, her boyfriend, after all the time we spent together, all the sleepless nights, all the early mornings, all the laughs, everything. i couldn't begin to fathom it. 

"it's me, daniel, your boyfriend for like the past two years. you don't remember me?" 

"i don't have a boyfriend, i don't think. i can't remember." she stared into my eyes. i thought that maybe like in movies if i had kissed her, she would suddenly remember me. so i cupped her cheeks with mt hands and placed a soft kiss on her lips. she still didn't remember me.

"you really don't even slightly remember me?" i asked and she shook her head no.

"i'm sorry i just don't." she shrugged and i sighed.

"well what's the last thing you remember?" i questioned. she thought for a moment.

"um, being at the cafe with my best friend lexi." 

"that's it?"

"yeah, i don't know, that's the last thing i can clearly remember."

"do you remember the day?" 

"i don't know, june tenth i think, i had an exam i remember so probably june tenth." she nodded seeming confident in her answer. that was the day we met.

"okay great, so i know you don't remember but after that, i met you at the dog park with my friend jack, you don't know him do yo-" i rambled on.

"jack, i know jack, perm kid right?" she asked. why would she remember him and not me?

"you remember jack?" i questioned a bit hurt.

"yeah, don't know why just do."

"right, anyway we met and i asked you out to the movies, that was two years, we've been together over seven-hundred-thirty days and you can't even remember you're boyfriend." my voice becoming slightly more annoyed as my sentence went on.

"i told you, i can't remember, i don't even know why i'm here okay!" she yelled, i instantly felt bad, i was supposed to be helping her.

"i know, i'm soring darling, i just- how do feel, are you in pain or anything, that's the first thing i should've asked you." 

"i'm fine, they gave me meds, can't feel a thing."