Random Thoughts I Have Everyday

Losing My Temper

    Alright I'm not going to beat around the bush. I am not one to lose my temper easily, but there are times where it is necessary to get people to leave me alone when I need/want it. But I do get annoyed easier than I like to dwell on. Once my temper is out, there is nothing you can say in that moment that will calm me down. See I'm not an emotional little bitch(and no I'm not calling emotional people little bitches that want attention) who wants a lot of attention, in fact, I hate attention. I'd rather have to stab my eye out than have all the attention on me.
Things that piss me off:

1. People touching me- okay I have a reasonable reason for this. You see when I was 6 I was physically abused by my mom's ex boyfriend, my sister constantly hit me, and I was molested by my grandfather. Those are reasons why I get pissed off when people put their hands on me.

2. People ridiculing what I wear/telling what to wear- Now I'm not one to care about what people think of me in what I wear all the time, but giving your opinion and insulting me are two different things. See I have people who give great advice on what to wear, but there are those bitches that go behind your back and insult you. I hate people like that and then they have the audacity to tell me what to wear and how to wear it.

3. People not listening to advice I give- Okay look, I'm not always around people giving advice. I only do it when people ask and I give a truthful and blunt answer. I usually give great advice to people(unless I don't like you and I'll be a bitch about it), and when I give it usually people listen closely. Then there are those people who ask for advice then completely do the opposite of the advice you give. Like that is just a waste of my time and yours bitch don't ask me for advice if you were just going to ignore it.

4. People who don't know when to shut up/complainers of everything- Okay I'm a bit of a talker once I know you well and even then I am a bit quiet. So I don't like when people just ramble on about an ex or complain about what they have. Because there are people out there way less fortunate than us. I also hate people who complain about they're parents telling them things they're doing wrong or going to games and embarrassing them. Like bitch shut up before I slap you; you have parents that care. That's enough. There are some of us out there that have no parents that care enough or have no parents in general. Like get over yourself, you should be ashamed of complaining about shit you have.(my sister was one of those people/she still is)

5. People who are not adults telling me what to do- Look. It's one thing to ask me to do something, but it is a whole different story when someone tells me to do something. It's like a younger sibling trying to boss you around and having an older one do the same. No one wants either of those things. And I sure as hell don't like it, so when someone does I either do it because I was about to do the thing they told me to anyway or I just flip them off and go the other way.

6. People who make others feel small- I personally hate these types of people. I hate them more than any type of person ever. I am someone who believes that everyone has the same value and doesn't think that anyone is better than anybody. Because in the end no matter how you were or what stature you are in life we all will end up in the same place: dead, in the ground buried. The only difference is where our souls go. I'm not sure where they go for sure and neither do any of you. No matter what your religion is, but I do believe that God is real. No one can tell me for sure that heaven and hell both reside somewhere in some underworld or something. Even the biggest believer questions every now and then, and those who think the Bible a possible and reliable source of information, don't forget that humans we're the ones who translated the Bible. There could be some mistranslation there somewhere and we not know it.

7. People who mock suicide/depression- Suicide is a serious topic and is not something to joke about. So when someone mocks it that's like hitting a blind person and saying, "Watch where your going, man!" and knowing they are blind. You don't just walk up to person thinking about suicide and start interrogating them. Listen to them and try to understand and show them you care. You sure as hell don't start cracking jokes about it when your talking to them. That is just shitty to do to a person. No one deserves that kind of shit from people especially if you don't know what they deal with at home or whatever. I mean you don't know if your joke might set them off or not, so don't joke about it like it's something to take lightly because it isn't.

Hey guys. I know I have another book to work on, but I started on the next chapter and writer's block has caught up with me. So I am doing my best to get some inspiration for me to carry on with it. Another thing that I need to say is that I've been going through some stuff lately and I need those people reading to be patient for a bit okay. So DHS(Department of Human Services) people came to my house a week ago cause my sister is one of them bitches who don't appreciate what she has. Our aunt took us in when we needed a place to go and all my sister did was disrespect our aunt and complain about what she had. Now she is living with our shitty dad and his new "girlfriend" who probably won't stay long like the other one didn't. So yeah. Bye guys.

~ Shay out. Peace.