October 31,2016 -10:56pm
I said Yes and we're official, legal on both sides.
We started of awkward. I'm just starting to open up and trusting you. I'm always unfortunate when it comes to relationships. It's either I'll be two timed or they'll just leave without any reason.
Actually sa umpisa I'm torn whether to accept you or not. Takot kasi akong masaktan ulit. But I risked it, sige Go
You didn't disappoint me, you were always there when I needed you, you always assured me whenever I felt jealous. You gave me happiness and made me feel secured.
You gave me flowers, gifts and sent me lots of good morning and good night messages. The I love you's and I miss you's were all genuine, but the "Hindi ako magsasawa sayo kahit anong mangyari, Turtle ako at ikaw ang Shell ko, hindi kita ipagpapalit kasi nag iisa ka lang" it may sound cheesy but that's the sweetest of all. That's when I realized it's all worth it, the risk? I don't care anymore.
There are times when we fight for simple reasons na umaabot pa for a week or so. But in the end we always listen to each other. I'll say sorry, and you'll say you're sorry too.
I accepted the fact that you're still childish and needs lot of attention. You'll get jealous and will stop talking to me.
I almost memorized all of your secret signs. You lean on your hand when you're sleepy, look down when you're guilty, avert your eyes when you feel sorry, stare at me when you want attention,hold my hand when you feel anxious, bring back old messages when you feel like teasing me, at minsan bigla nalang mag f-frown yung kilay mo when you're annoyed, jealous, and angry, lastly you always say "bae ngayon lang ulit ako magdodota" when you really want to play.
The only thing that I can't phantom was, "what's the sign when you're lying? when you're pretending?" I didn't know, and more like I can't just read that part of you.
For one a half year we were so happy. I felt blessed, I always pray to God before I sleep to always take care of you and your family. I always pray na sana this relationship will be my last. I'm always praying you're the one. Or maybe hoping you are.
At the start of July, our conversations started to became shorter. Somehow the routine became like this, Good Morning, I love you, Kain kana, Ano ginagawa mo?- ok tuloy mo nalang, after the whole day, Kumain kana ng hapunan? Ginagawa mo? -ok tuloy mo nalang, Wala kana bang ginagawa?, tulog na tayo, Good night, I love you.
I felt hurt whenever you'll say "anong ginagawa mo" followed by "sige tuloy mo nalang muna yan" , like I'm here ready to open a new topic and you'll just cut it off like that. What hurts more is that, I'll try to tell you a story of how my day went by and you'll answer it by "Sml"?(share mo lang)
That's not how it's supposed to be, it may sound childish and oa pero nakakabastos. But I thought it's fine, maybe nakikisabay ka lang sa uso.
But then our relationship went downfall. The short conversations became shorter than ever. You complain "kung hindi kita ichachat di mo ako kakausapin", yes I admit my fault there. And I have no excuse. More like I don't want to say any reason because it may sound selfish.
I miss the old us.
At first I thought we're getting better, the relationship we have is getting matured. No more petty fights and nonsense tantrums. I thought we're just giving each other's time and space. Cause we're both old enough to do things our own way. But in the end, I was wrong.
