Don't Bless Me Father For I Have Sinned. [Ryan Sitkowski / Motionless In White]

Do We Want This Or Do We Need This?

*Creatures by Motionless In White inspired this chapter*
God, fuck I hate waking up like this. This craving that I wish I never had. I got up and went to the restroom and saw how shitty I looked, and to think it's only been a couple days since I haven't had it. If you don't know what I'm talking about yet, it's cocaine. I don't exactly want it but, my body feels like it needs it.
  I look at my phone for what felt like a hours, contemplating if I should call my friend Ron and ask if he had any, but in reality it was only like two minutes. I clicked on his contact and within three rings he answered.
   "Hello" he's said answering. "Hey, dude, it's me Scarlet. I was calling to see if you had anymore coke? I'm in need man!" I say almost begging him. "Nah Scar, I ran out the other day and won't get anymore for about a week, I'm sorry man." Goddamnit! I'm over here felling like shit and the only guy I know who ever has any is fucking out! "Shit man! Do you know anyone you can put me in contact with? I always know you have people." "Yeah I have a guy his name is Ryan, I'll text you his number and you can contact him and see what up." He said and it made me a bit happier. "Okay thanks! Your a fucking life saver! Bye dude thanks again!"
    After that he hung up and texted me a number. Immediately I texted them asking if this was Ryan and that Ron gave me his number. As soon as I sent it it was maybe 5 minutes and I got a reply.
     'Yeah this is Ryan, what do you need?'
     'Ron said you sell coke, is that true?'
     'Yeah, if you'll meet me at this address I can give you some'
     'Thanks dude, see you then.'
     After we texted I got ready to meet him. I hopped in the shower and washed my hair and body. When I got out I dried off and went to my closet to get some clothes and shoes. I grabbed my Slipknot shirt that was cut on the sleeves and showed my bra, also my ripped black skinnies and some black Vans. I did my usual makeup which consisted of pale ass foundation, my eyebrows filled in with a black pencil, simple eyeliner. I did my hair which was just straightening it and I was ready to go. I grabbed my keys as I was walking out the door. I opened the door to my 1999 hardtop black Jeep following the directions he gave me.
   God I hope this guy isn't a fucking creep! I thought as I drove down the street.
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(A/N) Heyy! So this is my first time really ever writing something so I'm sorry if this is shit! But Ryan is one of my favorites from Motionless In White so why the hell not write about him? But I really hope you guys like this and I'm not just wasting my time with it, and it will probably be kinda a slowly updated book so I'm sorry about that!