Mera Marz e Mustamir

Episode 10(Akhri marhala)part 1

Han ye sach ha k maine bhe usy din rat duaon main manga tha...Mujhe chah thi k koi moujza hojye wo shaks mera hojye yaqeen tha Allah pr k wo mujhe de dega main Allah k kareeb hogai,maine kia nhi kia usy paanay k lye..Koi dua aisi na thi k jismy uski muhabbat na mangi ho,uska sath na manga ho,main usy janti bhe nhi thi mgr muhabbat ajeeb shay ha ye kahan dekhti ha insan k hasab nasab ko bss hojati ha mujhe bhe aise insan se muhabbat hui thi jise main janti tk nhi thi bss andaazay lgati thi wo aisa ha wo aisa hoga wo achy kirdar ka hoga wo aisi batain krta hoga janay beghair he andazay lgati imagine krti thi...uski andhi muhabbat mujhe farz se tahajud tk le gai...usy mangty mangty mujhe koi or mil gya tha....mgr gilay thy shikway thy tumhari trah aima..bilkul tumhari trah ...Nirmal bol rhi thi bta rhi thi apny raaz khol rhi thi or Aima khamosh baghor ghani palkon wali Nirmal ko sunn rhi thi..rat bahar gehri hrhi thi mgr chandni ki chamak puray asmaan pr raaj kr rhi thi Or wo saray jawab de rhi thi,ishq e majazi k karway zehr main ishq e haqaqi ka shehad ghol rhi thi....
Janti ho Aima mere ghr ka koi kona aisa nhi jahan beth k maine usy Dua main na manga ho..Kabay pr pehli nigha pri tou usy manga...Gumbat e khizran ko dekha tou dil se yehi awaz nikli k Ay mere Allah mujhe wo shaks de de ye tou aisi jghain hain jahan log mazboot iman mangty hain jahan log achi akhirat mangty hain bakhshish mangty hain mgr dekho aima main in jghaon pr khri usi aik shaks ko mang rhi thi...meri zidd ana bnti jarhi thi..Mujhe ghussa ata tha itni ibadat itni duain phir bhe wo mera nhi?...thik ha bs aik dfa mujhe aik mouqa de de k main usy dekh lun...aik nzr he sahi bs usy jaan lun usay bta skun k mujhe usse kitni mohabat ha ..bs itna he krde ilahi itni duain ki hain badlay main aik mouqa he de de...phir mouqa mil gya...Allah ne meri sunli...Or phr tum janti ho Aima...tum janti ho kia hua..Maine jis insan ko paanay k lye din rat duain mangin wo insan fareb kaar tha wo waisa tha he nhi jaisa maine smjha tha..usny mery jazbaat ka meri pak mohabbat ka mazak bna dia,usy meri muhabbat mazak lgti thi bchpana lgti thi ,usny toheen ki tazleel ki wo iss lyk nhi tha k main usky sath shadi tou kia bat bhe krti...wo waisa mard tha he nhi jaisa maine usy imagine krlia tha...Wo zindagi k wo kch din jinmy main raton ko jaag jaag kr usse chat krti thi k bs aik bar kahein aik bar wo keh de k han main tumhari mohabat ki qadar krta hun....wo srf mujhe use krta rha aima time pas krta rha..mera mazak urata rha ....maine chor dia ...Phir chor dia maine usay...Nafrat nhi krti main usse ...Mohabbat aaj bhe andar kahein ha...Mgr...Nirmal bolty bolty ruk gai...ghani palkon wali ankhain hawa main ksi nukty ko dekh rhi thein ksi gehri sooch main gum sum hogaen thein...Mgr kia?Aima ne phir sawal kia...Or Nirmal k honton pr aik ajeeb c muskaan ai...
Mgr ub main usy nhi mangti,muhabbat aaj bhe ha...mgr nhi...Main nhi mangti usy....Mujhe Aaj bhe yaqeen ha apni dua pr...Allah k kun pr Main aaj bhe chahon tou usy maang lun,main ye keh k maang lun k "Ay Allah usy mere haq main behtr kr k mera bna de lakin mujhe wo de de mujhe bss wo aik shaks de de "or phr Wo Kun keh dega...Or mujhe wo mil jyega..hum insan itni jldi mayoos kion hojaty hain Allah se jb k hum janty hain k Allah supreme power hain wo chahen tou insan ka dil badal den usky dil main humari muhabbat bhar den...Main bhe maang skti thi na Allah se k ay Allah usky dil main meri mohabat bhar de lakin Nhi ..maine nai mangi...Mera Allah chahta tha k main usky agay jhukun main usse mohabbat krun main Allah k kareeb hojaon...Isilye usny mere dil main uss shaks k lye mohabbat dal di...phir mujhe usi shaks k haton tora ...Ta k ub jb paltun tou Allah or mere darmiaan koi or na ho.....Han maine wo shaks chor dia jisy main dunia main sb se ziada chahti thi shyd apny aap se ziada or jiski parwah krti thi shyd apny aap se bhe ziada....lakin ub mere pas Allah ha...jo mujhse muhabbat krta ha or meri parwah krta ha or yaqeenan usse bhe ziada krta ha jitni main khud apny aap se krti hun"....Rat ka andhera kahein asmaan ko ghernay ki tarap main chaya hua tha Chandni ki sultanat thi ,aisi chamak phoot rhi thi k kainaat ka zarra zarra uski roshni pr rashk khaa rha tha ...ghani palkain ub nam thein,mgr sukoon itmeenan wesa he tha andhera idher bhe bss intizar main tha, mgr chamak thi k mouqa deti na thi..Aima sakat c bethi ub tk unn ankhon main dekh rhi thi..sara ghussa sara malal khtm hochuka tha...Jin ankhon ki chamak dekh kr kch dair pehly usy uljhan c hui thi ub unhi ankhon pr usy Rashk araha tha...
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"raaazaaq....."maine tm pe bharosa kia thaaa razaq....kion kion kia tmne aisa maine aetebar kia tha tm dono pr....kion itny saal tm logon ne meri halal kamai mehnat ki kamai pr hath saf kiye kion....sharam kion na ai tm dono ko..."saith jb ghusse se cheekhty cheekhty thak gya tou kursi pr gir gya ..razaq or akbar zaman saith k samnay sar jhukaye khamosh kharay thay mgr andar intiqam lene ka thatay maarta samandar shor mcha rha tha ...."dafa hojao apny ye chehre le kr or aik maheene tk mujhe nzr na ana .. main chahta tou tm logon ko adalaton or jail k chakkar katwata mgr main srf or srf tmlogon ki aulaad ka mun dekh kr tm dono ko azaad chor rha hun mujhe tou Allah ne bht dia ha pr tm logon ko yun chor dia tou tmhare bachon ki aah mujhe khaa jyegi...."saith ne ek thunda sans bahar kia kanpati masl kr kursi se taik lga li..razAq or akbar jb saith k kmry se bhr nikly tou minar ko kmry ki trf ata dekh kr unka ghussa had se tajawuz krne lga.. bht mushkilon se zabt kiye wo dono maray maray qdmon k sath wahan se rafu chakar hogye ..