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20. c o m f o r t

"It really doesn't matter either..." He said and leaned against his desk.

My heart ached. I hated the fact that I was happy with Michael while he is having such a miserable time with Nia.

"I think I'm going to call it off with her" he muttered which snapped me out of my thoughts.

"What..." I said in disbelief and walked closer to him and squeezed his shoulders.

"Look, Justin, you're just angry right now, don't take such decisions in the heat of the moment-

"I'm not saying that in the heat of the moment Bella!" He snapped and shut me up.

"That what you saw and heard a couple seconds ago, I have to go through that every damn day!" His voice was loud as he spat his words angrily.

"Some nights, I just sleep here on that couch so I can have peace of mind and get some sleep for a change!" He said and pointed at the couch across us and my heart hurt even more after hearing that.

"What..."

"Yes! I can't do this anymore Bella, I'm tired! I'm so fucking tired of Nia and everything she keeps ranting everyday, it isn't working out for us" He said and rubbed his face with his palms.

And when he took his hands off, I saw that his eyes had turned red at the edges and tears were starting to fill them up.

"Justin, please calm down" I said and made him face me.

He sniffled and looked away but there was no way that he could hide his tears from me.

He was in pain. A lot of it. And it wasn't just something about Nia, I feel like there's something else bothering him too but I can't figure what

I grabbed his arm and pulled his closer and put my arms around his neck, wrapping him in a tight embrace. He hugged back immediately and cried in the crook of my neck.

I rubbed my hand up and down his back in order to calm him.

"Please don't cry" I whispered but that didn't work either.

"Nothing seems to go the right way lately. Everything keeps crumbling down. I'm tired of living this way" He said and I pulled out Just a little so I could see his face.

"Listen, you're just in a bad mood right now okay? How does a movies day together sound? And I'll bake some pizza for us, I'm sure it'll make you feel better" I said and wiped his cheeks.

"And don't worry about the work, I'll handle it for today, I'll tell Lena I'm not coming to work today, she'll understand" I said and he swiped his tongue across his lips and nodded.

"Come on" I said and led him out and drove us to my apartment.

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After having a Jim Carey marathon the entire day, it was seven pm when we decided that we should stop now.

I sighed after putting the TV off and looked at Justin.

"Feeling better grumpy?" I asked and he looked at me and forced a smile and nodded.

"Oh come on, you laughed so much, you can't go back to thinking about that now!" I almost whined and shifted closer to him.

"No, no, I really did have the best day in a long while today but I'm just sad that I have to go back to reality now" he said.

"Justin you know I'm there for you anytime you need me right?" I said and he smiled a small genuine smile this time and nodded.

"I know" he said and I hugged him. The hug lasted longer than the one earlier today. It started to feel like I needed the hug to as his thumb rubbed my back softly and he breathed against the skin of my neck.

I felt myself begin to drown in nostalgia as I remembered the old days when we'd lay like this for hours, In each other's arms.

"You remember when we stayed like this for almost the whole day once, we had fallen asleep after sometime" He said and I chuckled.

"I was thinking about the same" I admitted.

"I miss you Bella" He said way too softly and it was clearly not meant to be heard by me but I did. I held back a gasp and decided to pull away.

But I only realised how close we were when I looked at him again.

His eyes oscillated between my eyes and lips and before my senses could make me move away, he had started to lean in.

And I had left my common sense way behind as I leaned in too and our lips pressed against each other's and my body was filled with sparks.

I couldn't even count how long it had been since I last felt this. And I couldn't fathom how I had survived that long either.

My arms went around his neck as he grabbed me by my hips and pulled me onto his lap.

The kiss heated up and my hands clutched onto his hair while his crawled under my top and his finger tips ghosted against the skin of my sides and hips.

He never broke the kiss as he wrapped my legs around him and stood up before walking inside my bedroom.

The thought of stoping him was long gone now. I had missed him too and I wanted him just as much.

He placed me on the bed and broke the kiss to get rid of his t shirt before his lips connected to skin on my neck, right over my sweet spot making me gasp as he sucked and bit on it.

His kisses moved lower and his finger tucked in the straps of my camisole and dragged them off my shoulders and peeled the top off me.

It didn't feel any different at all. It felt like the every other time we've done this before. The passion was still there and still the same.

His eyes stared at me for a while as I lay in front of him, my torso; bare.

He bent down and kissed me with a doubled passion this time while his cold hands groped my chest together and I whispered in his mouth when his thumbs brushed against my hardened pecks before rolling them between his fingers.

My back arched when he took me in his mouth and I mumbled his name.

His hands undid my shorts before pulling them off me with my underwear and then the rest of his clothes joined the pile too.

"I miss you baby" he whispered in my ear as his too rubbed against me. This time, he said it loud enough for me to hear it.

"I miss you too Jay" I said and thankfully, he entered me slowly before the tears tried to escape.

I clutched onto his shoulders as he kissed me while he moved in and out of me and I moaned wordlessly.

His hands pinned mine above my head and my body squirmed under his aching to reach the high.

"Justin" I panted for air as I felt him inside me.

"Come for me Bella" he mumbled which was followed by his own growl.

My lips parted as my head got thrown back.

His mouth sucked on my hardened nub again, throwing me over the edge and my body trembled while I screamed his name as I came and he followed right after.

He pulled the covers over us and laid down beside me before spooning me from behind.

Niether of us spoke a word because we knew that was the best for us right now.

I closed my eyes, letting the comfort of his arms wash over me. And I knew that the next morning, it would be guilt that will fill me up and not the comfort.

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WELP

Bella, sweetie....

-Love, S