Always. I'll stay loving her, hoping feelings are mutual, even though she left me to be broken. Every night i can hear her words echo in my mind, similar to the soft breeze of midnight's hour echoing among lands of reality and the horizons of dreams, worlds that i've made, hoping to escape reality's grasp, hoping not to break a promise, although i was broken many moons ago. The moon shines softly, like the glistening tears that stream down my face. Three words of a promise, to be shared with two souls, who had agreed to be intertwined, never to be broken. But yet promises are meant to be broken to those who cannot handle the certianty of always. Yet we think of always as forever, even after our lives have ended.
I promised her I would change.
Did i not meet the expectation? Did I not be the person she wanted, the woman of her dreams?
Who am I to question her reasoning? Why did I believe the impossible. No ones are not meant to love,we are meant to silently let those who know their purpose let them pity us and use us to their advantage as though we are all cards in the games of love, and the pursuit of life. Who could love me, when i was nothing? Who can look into the eyes of a broken girl and try to love her like a woman, and then give up? But yet who am I to deny that she did love me, and tried to pick up broken pieces, but alas broken glass, just cuts into skin. Try to fix a broken mirror, all you do is get cut.
So, what is my purpose, my existence's worth without her?
Nothing.
Maybe it should be done, I can finally be free, and so can they.
I grabbed the reflecting silver, and carved the words onto both my arms.
I grabbed the rope, and tied it around my neck.
"You were my everything. Without you I am no one worth saving, no one to remember, only you were able to tell the tale of my beginnings into sanity, but alas you couldn't for the reason they couldn't. You were right, I was a broken person, and those who cannot be fixed, cannot exist in the right way. But just remember me in this life, as a woman who tried, to love, to be something, to win against something that could not be defeated. But please just remeber darling, Forever I'm.. Yours.... End
A/N: Sorry, but this needed to be shared, i apoligize if i have caused something, I meant no harm, just needed to write this down.. Enjoy if you can, Best Wishes- Topaz
