Darkling

Darkling ch. four (mathews journal)

********Mathews Journal*********

Dec,16th,1924

As I looked through this lens to capture beauty, That I sought out greatly. This lens does not do her justice. As I watched her from afar. I feel and read her

mind as if it were my own. Thus is why I need to find why and how we are connected, Could it be she is my pair? my other half? I can't say soul mates because

I am Immortal and Immortals have no soul, If it is true that she is my pair, That would explain my powers have grown so much, this life I lead before this. I

Saw her, I was damned until Achille found me in the alley broken, Bruised and almost lifeless. That same night and In that same night I because Immortal, That's

When I first laid my eyes on her. A little angel, She must of been Ten at the least walking hand in hand with her mother little brown ringlets bouncing as she

walked. and she looked right at me and smiled. That's when I knew my right of being was in the heart of that little girl, She tried shaking from her mothers hand

to come towards me but her mom kept a strong grip while the women pushed a baby carriage. She looked at her teddy bear she was clutching on to by its fuzzy

arm and up at her mom and pouted. Thats the last time I have see that Angelic face of hers.

*******Feb, 15th, 1925******

Just sitting around out of my bloody mind. Thinking What if I had some thing to do? It's always crosses my mind, The bleak sense of knowing that Years go by

like days and days go by like years, Thus is why every day seems just like the last. The only thing that changes in this hell are the seasons. Besides that every

day seems like the last. Maybe until I see her again. An maybe just maybe this depression will ease with her in my sight and in my arms instead of sitting in

this blood bar with these women and men wanting to me drink from there necks.

******** Sep, 4th, 2010*********

How come when things get turned upside down nothing goes right?, Or if things go good for a while....It turns to mush ? like something I would have found in

the allies of Scotland? Two days ago we moved from Scotland and now we are in Ohio, by the boarder between Ohio and Michigan. An each time I dream that

little girl is there? Yes its been a couple of years, fine okay" more than just a couple years. How the hell would I know I have not kept track of years for decades

now, Hell all I know it could be 2010!? But still and on top of that when some thing happens to her I know it happened, Like I was there when it happened, How

Is that even possible? I asked Achille, When he walked by me and laughed it off like some joke an said my child things happen for reasons, An some of those

reasons and may it be some reasons we don't even under stand. An he left it at that. What the hell is that supposed to me? Ugh! I think he lives to mess with

my mind, An to top it off we are going to some friend of his and talking to her about house listings or some messed ip garb like that. I don't care as long as there

are four walls and a roof with a blood bar close to go to. Even tho Achille wants me to try hunting an animal and try out there blood. I doubt I will like it. Not like

How much I like the blood donor's blood that the humans at the blood bars give there necks and wrist up freely to any person that slips them a couple

hundred or more. I so don't want to do this tomorrow but I have no choice according to achille. Stupid elders and you got to do what I say lad or else.

an on top of it, He said you might need this so I don't have to do with your girlie mood swings. An tossed my journal at me that went missing decades ago.

Where the hell did he was I could go hunting any thing is better than this.