CHANCES: Too Late

I don't want to cry so I must stop myself from reminiscing and talking about my lolo.

"Ahhmm... Gia, are you alright?" Myco asked me worridly.

"Yeah.. why?" I said puzzled.

"T-then.. w-why are you c-crying?"

I didn't even notice that I am already crying. Sht! I cry again. I wipe all my tears. I always cry whenever I remember my lolo. He was so close to me before. He taught me everything and loved me so much.

"I-it's nothing" I  said.

Silence. No one talks.

He stop his car in front of our house.

"Thank you," I looked at him. "Cofee?"

"No thanks. I know you're tired. See you tomorrow."

"Yeah. Bye."

When I'm about to open the gate he called me.

"C-can.. can i g-get yo... your num...ber?" he said stammering.

"Sure" It's just a number. It cand o me no harm. And i think My co is harmless. haha

That night is the start of our friendship.

At first I am so irritated and annoyed whenever he's around. And talking to me like we are so close to each other. He is so makulit but I appreciate him for being there for me. I told him about my lolo so he would stay away from me like the others. But he only says, "Your lolo is a great man. He fight for what he think is right. I salute him for that." And I can't myself from crying when I heard that from him. Finally, I found someone who thought lolo as the same as mine. From then we became friends. My only friend. He taught me things I didn't know and vice versa. He's the only one I trust on. He never makes me feel alone. I feel so dependent on him. I don't know what will happen to me without him. It was so strange because when I didn't know him yet I can do my things on my own, without anyoneto help me, even my parents. But now, it's nice to have a friend like him. 

I thought everythings will change when he told me he loves me but it's not. He is sweeter tahn ever.

He asks me for a dinnerdate. And that night we are officially boyfriend-girlfriend.

First month of our relationship is a pure blies. He is the sweetest boyfriend ever. He is thoughful and caring.He gives me everything I want.I thought we will lasts but  I im getting board day by day.He do what ni want. He is not jealous whenever he saw  me with another man. He always say "I trust you" Gash! there's no thrill with him.We never argue with anything.We never had a fight.One time,I flirt  with just while he,s looking at me He just smile.He never even darr to walk and fell josh:stay away from my girl"I dont kn ow w hat to do with him He is so kind! So I made a decision to breakup with  him e ven if it,s   hujnrting me.Ithink he really doesn't love me.He just thought he loves me.Because it he lo ves me I'll  get a reaction to him when I flirt whit josh.The day come that I break up with him.He ask me "why" I told him"I dont love you" And he accept it with out any further explanation.And it confirms that he never really love me.Since then I never saw him again.Afer 2months I received a letter from him. And it brokes my heart into pieces after reading it.

Gia,                                                                                                                                                                              

       Im sorry,

        I dont  know what I  done wrong for you to break up with me.

        I Done evberything for you 

         I love you.

          There are times that i doubt that you love me too. For you never told me you love me.But I cant ask  you.I'm scared what your answer will be. but  then, you said it straigt to my face. And it hearts damn  much.Pardon my choice of words but it is really da mn  hurting me. Your the first woman I loved and I think will be last.Always remember that I love youy so much.........

 Goodbye

 Myco

After  just a day he met an accident. And he dont survive.... I dont have a chance to tell him how much I love him....... I dont have a chance to say I'm sorry.....

Sorry  mahal

Sorry for being a brat

Sorry for taking you granted 

Sorry for not you gi ving you worth

Sorry for not trusting you love

Sorry for being immature

Sorry for giving you pain

Soory for the heartaches

Sorry for telling you lies

Sorry for everything............

And most of all Sorry for not telling you 

     how much i love you.......

I love you mahal

But its to late. I am to late 

I have  no chance  to say these words to you... 

I dont have a  second chance.........

I just cry on his grave because that's the only thing I can do...

-the end-

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