Deep Secrets

Chapter 15 : ' Getting Through '

But, I know she hate me to after the shit I did to her bestfriend. But Monica was my only option at this point, I figured the best time to do it is tomorrow.

As I was taking out my iPhone my mom came in the room "Wassup son" she asked sitting next to me. "Ah, nothing figuring how ima work stuff out with this girl" I said not really wanting to talk about it. "Yeah son, I think its time you got out of this "little boy" stuff and man up! Can't act and be childish all ya life its a time to play and a time to handle ya responsibilities"

"Yeah ma, I know" I said rubbing my waves. "Well, just to let you know I'm done raising kids hell, I can give you a few tips on this and that but you gotta do this shit on ya own" she said gettin up.

I laid my head back on the couch and closed my eyes. I guess when tomorrow comes we'll see how it turn out.

Whatever happens, happens.. I still ain't want her ass though..

|| Tuesday

Monica

I knew today wasn't gone be just a regular day, cause nobody can just wipe off what happened yesterday that fast.

I walked down the hallway looking for Shatavia and I overheard some red head girl say "Where's her nasty ass best friend at" I wanted to stop and slap the shit out of her but I just kept it moving, besides these bitches up here lame as fuck and definitely don't wanna see my side today.

I saw Darius, as he was walking towards me "Aye uh, Raheem wants to talk to you about something" I rolled my eyes, I ain't have shit to say to him "About?" I said irritated "He wants to work stuff out with Shatavia."

I looked at the floor and looked up, "OK. But if he even think he gone mess up with her this time I'll beat his ass up myself" I said walking to where Raheem was.

I stood behind him as I waited for him to turn around "iight yall catch yall lata" he told his homeboys. "Wassup" I said. "Um, Yeah! I need a favor" he said rubbing his hands together.

"Depends on what favor you need?" I said being sassy. "Aha, I need you to help me work shit out with Shatavia, I don't wanna be with her or nun I just wanna help out when the baby get around"

"And you think I can help out? Just talk to her.. I'll tell her you wanna talk" I said. "Uh aight if you tellin her I wanna talk gon' help then shid.. but I don't wanna sound desperate or nun" he said lookin me dead in the eye.

"Look, she's gonna talk you just do what you gotta do" I said walking off. I turned around and saw Shatavia walk in.

I sped walk where she was and grabbed her hand. "Hey, you good?" I asked her "Yeah, yeah!" she said. "Um.. Raheem wants to talk to you" I said. "The fuck he want?" she said getting mad. "He wants to settle things, talk it out" I said hoping she would agree to talk with him.

"Okay, but he better not get any intentions on getting back with me, I'm done with his ass" she said. I chuckled and nodded my head. "Just call him when you get home girl"

I walked off and saw Darius waiting for me. I guess you could say stuff was slowly falling into place.

Shatavia

I wasn't the attention today and that was good. I heard little rumors and less talking when I walked down the hallways.

But, I was eager to find out what the hell Raheem wanted.. After all thats happened I literally hate his ass, but I forgave him.

I just hope talking to him wasn't going to take me back down that road I was in the last time.

I was so desperate and sprung, anything Raheem told me to do I couldn't resist it. But, I was a dumb ass. Not ever will I listen to a nigga and what they tell me to do. I don't mind admitting I'm dumb, because I was.

I was just being fast flappin my ass around him when I first saw him. Going to his house the next day and having sex with him. Thinking I was in "love". Tuh, I now realize how stupid as hell I looked doing that.

I met all his homeboys. Never met the mom. I saw how when he was around his boys they always laughed when I went to the car.

Raheem was up to some sneaky shit but I so called was "in love". I should've peeped this shit along time ago.

But never again will I do that. Never again will I mess around with a boy the whole school done fucked with. And never again will I ignore my best friend. She told me more than once to leave his ass alone.

I look and think back to all that, and its just not me. I let a stupid ignorant ass boy walk all over me and I didn't do shit about it.

Thats a mistake I done learned from. Here I am, with a baby on the way and I'm only 14, "babies shouldnt be raising babies" my mom would always say. And now I see what she meant.

But hey, I chose that dumb ass road to go down.. and never again.

I erased my thoughts and walked to class..

What the fuck was Raheem's ass really up to?