If I had Only known..

Chapter 1: Where it all started..

I lie in hospital, listening to all the voices around. I recognize every voice but feel numb, not being able to respond back to that person holding my hand. His teardrops fell on my arm and my heart aches from it. I feel helpless . Everything flashes in front of my eyes that made me shut myself down from world, taking away my own life. If I had only known, the paths that I took, the people I chose, I would have undone those 6 years... This is the story of my life I was responsible for.. 

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**6 years back**

"Alisha, I am getting late for work. Can you do it quicker?" shouted my dad making his way to the car. I was taking my own sweet time in packing up my bag for my new school. We had recently shifted to Chicago and I had this feeling that my life was about to get changed. Anyways making my way to car, I check my appearance for the last time. As soon dad stopped the car outside of my high school, I take a deep breathe. Seeing my nervousness, my dad kissed my forehead," Sweety, everything is going to be perfect." I smile and make my way to the school enterance.

As soon as I enter my school, I am so dumbstruck seeing the crowded hall. I am so intimidated by these people from big city like Chicago, us having shifted from a small town of Oklohama. I make my way to check my classes when I hit someone due to the push that came from behind. "Umm.. sorry. Wait, I will help you up." I look in the direction of the voice and I swear I have never ever seen a beautiful work of art in the past 16 years of my life.

Everything around me ceases for that moment and when I see him waving in front of my face, I come back to reality. "Hey. I am Alisha. I am a newbie, if that's what you call here. Just finding my way to my classes." I blabber out with a nervous laugh, embarassing myself further. "I am Damon. Nice to meet you. Come I'll show you around and help you find your way for your first slot." His dimples showed while speaking and I was in awe. "Slow down your hormones, Alisha.It's just your first day." I composed myself and followed him. He was so sweet to me the whole time while showing around the premises and finally drops me off to my first class. I thank him and promise to meet him during lunch.

As soon as I enter my class, I see a vacant seat in the front row. I was so excited seeing this as I have a special obsession for the front seats. I take my place and check out my surroundings, spotting a girl with those big spectacles engrossed in her notes. Being a "chirpy" nerd myself, I feel like initiating a conversation. After all I needed new friends in this new city and she seemed approachable.

"Hey, I am Alisha. I am new to this place." I said reaching forward my hand. She looks up in the direction of my hand and then at my face and again my hand. "I can clearly see that. I know the faces around and this spot has been empty for days." Saying that she looks back into her notes. "Wow, that was rude. Congratulations on making a complete fool of yourself", saying that to myself I promise to not participate in any other conversations throughout the day.

After the period goes off and I get off my seat to go to my next class, that same girl rushes towards me, "Sorry for being rude. I had so much tension for the test I will be having in my next class. By the way, I am Rebecca. Nice to meet you.", she said offering her hand this time. I was so confused but I shook hands with her and made our way to our next classes. "I am going to need a lot of time to adjust with people over here.", I thought and head to attend rest of my classes.

After finishing my last period before lunch, I quickly head back to cafeteria. After spotting Damon sitting with a bunch of high school athletes, I wave to him but he doesn't acknowledge me. "I only met him once. Maybe that's why he didn't recognize my face", thinking to myself I head to his bench with my lunch tray and pat on his shoulder. "Hi, remember me? I am Alisha, met you in the morning." I said with a smile. "Oh. Hi, come join us." he makes some space for me to sit. I feel uncomfortable partly due to being surrounded by jocks and mostly because all eyes of cafeteria are set on me.

"So I heard you are new to this city. How is the life in your small town?" , one of the jocks asks me in a mocking way. Replying to him politely, "Better than this city actually. People over there are so comfortable to interact with, unlike here."  His smirk disappears and I am satisfied with that. "Excuse me, I forgot to bring my drink." I pardon myself and as I head back to the stall, someone puts their foot in my way and I trip and fall, hitting the person on my way. All his food lands on my head and suddenly everyone is pointing and mocking at me. I run towards the girl's washroom, crying and regretting what I have gotten myself into.

***For the Audience***

Hi, this is my first attempt into writing something I had in my mind for a couple of years. I know I am not a pro at it, but I promise I will learn with the chapters. Editing is left which will be done after taking your suggestions into account. I need as much support as I can have..

I hope you will like my work and any suggestions for the cast is also open...