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Walls

I'm breaking down inside.

But you'll never see it

because I'll never show it.

I'll never show that I'm weak.

I'll never let the enemy beat me.

I've been torn

into a million pieces,

shattered like a glass vase

thrown at the hard marble floor.

But I still I force a smile.

Still, I act strong

because I don't want sympathy

from a person

who doesn't even understand

the brokenness of me.

Still, I smile.

Still, I laugh.

I'll let you think I'm happy.

You think I'm at peace.

You'll never see the war inside

that I'm fighting against me.

You'll never hear the screams and cries.

You'll never bear the burden

of being encased in walls so deep

it feels like you're in a coffin.

But I'll never show it.

You'll never know

the brokenness of me.

So I've built walls.

Brick by brick,

lie by lie

I pile them up

sky high.

Strong as a mountain,

wide as the seas

I'll never show

the broken side of me.

And here in these walls,

I thought I was safe.

Time to set my feelings free

like seagulls across the open seas.

I wanted to spread my wings.

To see the sun.

To catch the wind.

To fly away

from what I've become.

I thought I would be truly happy for once.

But I was wrong.

Instead, I am drowning

in my pool of tears,

in my anger

at the world,

and the monster I've become.

I've hidden away

behind these walls for way too long.

But even I couldn't break through

this wall of lies

that I have built around myself.

And here I have waited

for someone to come.

To tear my walls down

and set me free.

But no one came

so I guess

no one cares enough

to save me.

No one sees enough

to know

my pain

of not being free.