A Story of The Lost

Is it True

He'll never Love you he's a liar he hates that look in your eyes. You should run and never look back into his cold eyes. That look you give him kills him inside because somehow inside he thinks he did this. 

Every time he looks at you he has to bite his lip and force that cold look in his eyes and that casual smile. Because he hates that feeling it's like he's high but when you leave he drops so violently he's bound to break something. That dark expression is the one he carries to save you. His heart falls when he sees you with someone else. But he knows it's for the better because the dark deep inside hits his heart and plays those heavy strings. He goes to close and pulls himself away. He's a fuck boy and he always would be that way. That stupid feeling in his heart when he sees the one he loves. He pulls his heavy heart back together and forces the smile that never looks out of place on his face that forced smile takes the genuine one and nobody can recognize it's not real.

 He watches with a heavy heart and has another one night stand he drinks his thoughts away and comes to school the next day with a hangover. The way he always feels like he falls to the floor breaks him that LA high school won't hold him any longer at sixteen he drops out and you never see him anymore. The next time you see him is six years later and he seems like the same cold person. You meet him in the night he has a gun at your head and he's asking for your money. You ask him "What makes you do this" and he didn't respond until he sighs "This is my job but I don't want to hurt you or anyone but I need it I just want your cash." His cold eyes flash with emotion before covered over again.

 That's when you know you love him and your in love with the criminal with a gun at your head. You empty all the cash you have but you know it won't be enough from him. However he takes the change and dollars and runs off. The next time you meet is years later you walked down an alley on your way home and he has a knife at his throat and a gun at his head. They were telling him to come with them or they'd kill him. He follows their orders and you don't see him for a few years.

 The next time you see him you spent the night at your boyfriend's house but ultimately you slept on the couch he snuck past you unaware you were awake and killed your boyfriend in his sleep. You call the police on him and you see his eyes fear shown in them as guns were pointed at him and he was arrested. You showed up at his court case you had to tell them he killed your boyfriend. He was considered guilty and he was put into a jail cell. You visited him in jail a month later and he cried for the first time before you. He goes back to his cell after you tell him you loved him you never saw his bright blue eyes ever again.

After that, you thought finally you'd have a normal life. You thought your first love would never taint your thoughts again.