It's not hard. High School is not hard. I can do this. I can get good grades, pass all my courses, go on to college, get a degree and live happily ever after. At least that's what I tell myself, every single day. But it's just not good enough for me. I don't believe myself, I mean sure I know I will live, but will I live happy? I'm so stressed out even the slightest thing as a candy bar on my bedroom floor makes me want to cry, scream, and rip my hair out. Yes, High School is hard, people are hard, life is hard. But, if I just focus, distress and take time for myself I think I can make it.
I'm writing this not for anyone's entertainment, but if all means you like it then keep reading. In all honesty, I am writing this to get things off of my mind, so I can clear my head and stop stressing for one damn second. Stress is not good and I don't feel good. This may not have a theme or it might. I just want to speak my mind and talk about the things I can't always talk about to people in my life. Frankly, I genuinely don't think they'll understand. I put on this mask of being such a happy person who doesn't care. A person who doesn't have problems, who doesn't stress, because I don't want people to worry about me, to feel bad for me, to even really think of me. I like to make others happy even if it doesn't make me happy. And that is my main flaw that I am trying to fix because I need to be happy.
