Saving Grace

Fighting For

Each day I

Grow more scared

Each day I am

More lonely

Than the day before

Lay awake at night

Wishing you were near

To chase away my fears

To chase away my nightmares

I stare into the darkness

As it suffocates me

I cry out

But no answer comes

The tears fall

Silently, slowly

Rolling down my face

Splashing onto your picture

Each day I

Realize how lost I am

How lonely I am

How scared I am

Each day I

Fight, not knowing why

Each day I fight

To no prevail

I don’t know why

I fight every day

I am lost

In a world

Familiar in some ways

Unfamiliar in others

I try and try

To get free

Of all this

To find the peace

I so desperately need

Laying awake

My fears taken over

Wishing you were near

To chase them away

Darkness slowly

Taking over,

Suffocating me

As I try to cry out

My tears fall

But I just go on

Pretending as if

I wasn’t crying,

Screaming out for help

I continue fighting

Just for you

I struggle each day

With constant pain

Hoping that one day

The reason I live

And the reason I fight

Will be my husband

I fight for you

Though the pain

Kills me

And I want to cut

I fight for you

Though every day

I just pretend

Each day I

Grow more scared

Losing sight of

What I am fighting for