You're my 1st

Young love

Upon studying at this school for a year now and for being 2nd rank twice or I don't know 3? and for being rank 1 somewhere in the middle, I came across you. Ok ok, you guys may think it's 12 year old me, but.. hell no. It's your smartass gurl in kindergarten. I remember having 2 kindergarten years then elementary. But for those kindergarten years, oh my goodness. #AMAZEBALLS  Anyways, for nursery I was the 2nd best student of the class. I could have been first but this "smarter" girl was higher. Damn it. But when the 1st year of kindergarten rolled around, I was inspired. A new guy or.. kid came in. Mind you I was a shameless child back then. I started playing and playing with all the toys. like.. ALL. I was like, "NO ONE IS ALLOWED TO TOUCH THESE TOYS BUT ME!" Ok I'll admit it. I was a bitchy kid. BUT!
You came into my life. Just kidding, I'm not gonna go down to cheesy land. But it was true. I had a crush on this guy. HOLY CRAP! This guy was cute ok? Lolz. His name starts with a G(that's all I'm giving out) But um.. The teacher placed him beside me ●_● Shocked
But what I remember, she placed him beside me cause I was so so so talkative. Low and behold, I am very talkative. Isn't it obvious? But really, that's the reason why she placed him beside me(even if 4 year old me thought it was destiny) We became friends right away, not really right away but right away. He was very very shy, but I was able to break his shell little by little. I remember everytime he would stand up, I would stand up and put my head on his shoulder.. I was a weird kid. But hey, he didn't mind. we eventually became bestfriends, you were my 1st bestfriend. months and months of school passed and it was summer. We both attended chinese summer camp. it was so much fun. I remember our chairs following the corner of the room so we would both be sitting in the corner. we would have our snacks all the time I would always have cheese and you would always have yakult or some sort of drink. we went on a field trip too, your mom was there and my mom was there so, we didn't get to hangout that much. Summer camp was over and we still had the rust of the summer before school. I knew that there was no way, no absolute way we would hangout and have fun. And I was right. The 2nd year of kindergarten rolls around and.. sadly we were not classmates. However, we were tutormates. We would always walk each other to our classrooms. If we were to enter from the back I would walk you to your room and if we were to enter from the front, you would bring me to my class. We had matching Balance Bracelets. Yours was red and my bracelet was fuschia. And one time, before tutor, I got glasses. I was vey shy about it since I didn't like the way it looked, but you told me that it was ok and I didn't need to be shy about it. Then 1st Grade came by and.. we were still not classmates. We didn't talk that much, but once you asked me if I was still going to have tutorials, I said no. And another time where you asked someone to call me so we could talk, and.. that never happened because I dodged it. But we both skipped 2nd grade and went to 3rd grade. At this point I think it's very very obvious that I still liked you. I was going to give you a sorry note that I dodged the "talk" but my teacher confiscated it. I realized that I didn't have a chance with you.(wow this shiz got real deep) But a sparkling joy came back and I wanted to start over. I remember me planning everything out on my pad paper underneath my desk so that my teacher couldn't confiscate it(stupid 3rd grade me didn't know that it was more obvious) As I was getting ready for recess, I see you walking pass my classroom talking to this girl, you were smiling and you seem to enjoy the talk, but meanwhile I felt like you replaced me(jeez,how dramatic am I?) But seriously,I felt that way.. cause she was new. It was like me talking to you on the first day of kindergarten, but this time you were talking to someone else. At that point, I really just gave up, but everytime you passed by me I don't know why I get goosebumps on my arms and why I get chills. 5th grade came and I remember someone telling me about you crushing on me. or at least that's what he said. Let's call this guy.. dude, we'll talk about him later. But anyways fast forward, I'm pretty sure it was about the 2nd week of December because we were getting ready for our annual Christmas presentation. I played as Marry. The mother of God. I don't know what you were tho but.. nevermind. I was getting ready and I needed to go to the bathroom. you passed by me and said "Look it's Marry" or something close to that. I didn't know what to do, so I just laught it off. 6th grade came and I was wondering what section you were. I was in section 3(TMI) But I was waiting outside to see you come. I didn't see you come in any classrooms, so I assumed that you would be absent. So the next day you still didn't come. I was starting to worry a bit but I tried not to think about it, until one day. I heard you moved to the states. I was so shocked and upset, I couldn't think straight that day. But on April 2016 we started to chat. I was very very happy about that, but dude(the guy who told me that you were crushing on me) told me that you had a girl and that I couldn't chat you. Ever since then, I've always wished that I talked to you about it and I always wanted you to say it yourself. But dude made me believe it and the way he said it was so so believable. Now I'm in the 8th grade. I still think of you from time to time, and I've always planned on asking you if everything dude had said was real. Sometimes I talk about you with my mom, asking her if she remembers. I told her that you moved to the states, and she said we could visit you sometime. I hope one day we'll be like the day we first met.