Dear Nobody

future holds

Dear nobody, Im sitting in a room of people who want to help but i can't grab on and hold on. Im a shadow of a person. He hurt me used me and then left me I hate myself, my life and whatever my future holds. I nee

"Honey will you please come back to the group?" I reluctantly closed my note book and turned back to group. We were working on relationships, just as I started to share I realized I was being called out by my mother. This will be shit..... 

My parents divorced when I was 5, it sucked but not as much as being my moms punching bag and my dads glorified slave. I was still a punching bag but at least I didn't have to do shit for my dad. 

"Jess, we need to go honey." my mom said sickly sweet. I knew that I was in for a shit show at home. 

The car ride home was a mixture of fear and acceptance. No matter what happened nothing would change her needs and feelings. 

"Mom please stop!"

As I was in bed I relzied that no amount of hope was worth this pain, nothing was worth this pain. Just as i was falling asleep someone jumped through my window.