a thousand years ago when i met you a titans story

a life to live

alexandra marie roth i always hated that name it was a curse , my dad killed my mom and blew up azarath and stole me into the underworld. i spent most of my time there cleaning his chamber .

''hey alex i thought i would find you in my bedroom , why is a lady like you in my room?" robin teased me . i blushed and smiled a little. truth was I felt safe in his room.

" using your computer to find raven " I lied . raven has ben missing 6 months . shes my sister . and ive been diagnosed with major depression the highest level of depression . these are some of the symptoms

Loss of interest or pleasure in your activities

Weight loss or gain

Trouble getting to sleep or feeling sleepy during the day

Feelings restless and agitated, or else very sluggish and slowed down physically or mentally

Being tired and without energy

Feeling worthless or guilty

Trouble concentrating or making decisions

Thoughts of suicide

I was all of those . I never told anyone . I looked at my outfit it was katniss everdeens mockingjay outfit.

I then looked over at the mirror that robin had I looked at my hair

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(its the first photo and in the middle) I looked ugly now . I said my goodbyes and went up to the roof and sang my favorite song

Just an average girl

She always wore a smile

She was cheerful and happy for a short while

Now she's older

Things are getting colder

Life's not what she thought, she wished someone had told her

She told you she was down, you let it slip by

So from then on she kept it on the inside

She told herself she was alright

But she was telling white lies

Can't you tell? Look at her dull eyes

Tried to stop herself from crying almost every night

But she knew there was no chance of feeling alright

Summer came by, all she wore was long sleeves

'Cause those cuts on her wrists were bleeding through you see

She knew she was depressed, didn't want to admit it

Didn't think she fit in, everyone seemed to miss it

She carried on like a soldier with a battle wound

Bleeding out from every cut her body consumed

She had no friends at school, all alone she sat

And if someone were to notice she would blame the cat

But those cuts on her wrist, they were no mistake

But no one cared enough to save her from this self-hate

Things were going down, never really up

And here she is now stuck in this stupid rut

She knew exactly what she had to do next

Just stand on that chair and tie the rope around her neck

She wrote a letter with her hand shaking wild

"Look at me now! Are you proud of your precious child?"

But she knew that her parents weren't the ones to blame

It was the world that should bow down its head in shame

She stood up on the chair and looked out at the moon

Just don't think, it'll all be over soon

The chair fell down as she took her final breath

It's all over, all gone, now she's greeting death

Her Mom walks in, she falls down to the floor

And now nothing can take back what she just saw

The little girl that she raised is just hanging there

Her body's pale and her face is violently bare

She sees the note and unfolds it with care

All she does is stare, "How can this be fair?"

She starts reading as the tears roll down her face

"I'm sorry Mom but this world is just not my place

I've tried for so long to fix this and fit in

I've come to realize this world's full of sin

There's nothing for me here, I'm just a waste of space

I've got no reason to stay here with this awful race

It's a disgrace, I was misplaced

Born in the wrong time and in the wrong place

It's OK though, 'cause you'll see me soon

You'll know when your time has come, just look at the moon

As it shines bright throughout the night

And remember everyone's facing their own fight

But I can't deal with the pain, I'm not a fighter

You'll make it through the night, just hug your pillow tighter

So let the world know, that I died in vain

'Cause the world around me, is the one to blame

And I know in a year, you'll forget I'm gone

'Cause I'm not really something to be dwelled on

That's what they used to tell me, all those kids at school

So I'm going by the law "majority rules"

My presence on this earth is not needed any longer

And if anything, I hope this makes you stronger

You're the best friend that I ever had

Such a shame I had to make you so very sad

But just remember that you meant everything to me

And to my heart, you're the only one that held the key

Now it's time to go, I'm running out of space to write

And yes I lost my fight, but please just hold on tight

I'm watching over you from the clouds above

And sending down the purest and whitest dove

To watch over you, and be my helpful eye

So this is it, world, goodbye."

I said and began to cry . I felt hands wrap around me ....