based on the song 'perfume' by Britney Spears.
I want to believe
It's just you and me
Sometimes it feels like there's three
Of us in here baby....
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1st February - 1st September 2018
I felt her grab my arm and turn me so I was facing her and her hands raised to cup my face and wipe away the leftover tears with her thumbs.
She then rubbed my arms up and down to comfot me.
"It's alright" She said but that just reminded me of how nothing is alright and brought back the tears.
And then I did what I needed to do the most. I hugged her.
Really tight, as if this was the last time I'm getting to hold her. Maybe it is? Who knows when she might just slip out of my fingers and I won't even realize.
She hugged me back and we stayed like that. She knew something was wrong with me but she didn't question, knowing I won't tell her.
It's supposed to be her birthday, I'm not supposed to cry like a baby and make this about me.
"I'm sorry" I mumbled as I pulled away and cleaned my face again.
"Do you feel okay?" She asked and I nodded and gave her a fake smile, hoping she'd buy it.
"Yeah, I really am okay, the song just got me a little nostalgic" I said.
He sang a couple more songs before the concert was over and we made our way back home in a comfortable silence.
She finally broke it when we reached inside the house.
"I really had fun, thank you for that" She said.
"Oh, you don't have to, it was your birthday" I said.
"I guess we both need a little sleep now" She said and I nodded.
"Yeah, I feel tired too. Goodnight" I said
"Goodnight" she smiled and went to her room and I walked inside mine.
I stripped off all my clothes and put on my shorts before sitting down at the edge of the bed and staring at the empty side.
Was this really worth it? Giving up Bella for Nia? I really don't know anymore.
Right now, all my choices seem empty and void.
But Bella isn't gone really, at least I should make the most out of the time she is around me.
I don't know what took me over as I stood up and walked to Bella's room and knocked on the door before going in.
She had changed into her nightgown too and was folding her clothes as I walked in.
"I just thought that...." I trailed off and she waited for me to complete.
"You shouldn't be sleeping all alone on your birthday night" I said and she smiled.
Her smile assured me that she was okay with it so I made myself comfortable on the bed and she joined beside me after she was done.
She pulled the duvet over us before switching off the lights and laid down beside me.
"The concert seemed like the best gift of the day but now..." She trailed off,. leaving me confused.
"Now?"
"This is the best gift" She said and ran her fingers through my hair.
I inhaled deeply before shifting closer to her and pulling her into my chest until we were all snuggled up.
"Happy birthday" I said again, my lips brushing against her shoulder as I spoke.
"It really was a happy one" She said making me smile.
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AND IF Y'ALL HAVEN'T CHECKED OUT ISAAC GRACIE'S MUSIC YET, DROP WHATEVER YOU ARE DOING RIGHT NOW (you were probably reading this but lmao) AND GO LISTEN TO HIM!
