Denial

It begins

Denial. A little word with huge meaning. There are always consequences for actions. I just never thought that it would happen to me. Then the little white stick turned blue. Sure I always thought about having kids but not this soon. I am twenty years old with three more months of college left. I am finishing up my degree in social work. I don't normally go to parties or drink. But I did that night... *Flashback six weeks ago. My two friends Debbie and Tahni drug me to a party at a frat house. The girls gave me a short cocktail dress and did my makeup and hair. When they thought I looked ready, we left. Boys immediately were looking at us. Debbie broke off from us and went to make out with her boyfriend. Tahni came back with two cups of beer. I took it and drank a little bit. Then I realized I started to get a little buzz. I finished that one then tried another. I ended up dancing with this one guy. Jason Toviano. His lips crashed into mine with a sense of urgency. I then quickly kissed back. Before I knew it, his lips moved down my body. He then took my hand and led me to one of the bedrooms. Our kissing intensified and my hands took over. His shirt flew off. He then took his hands and unzipped my dress. He put me on the bed and kept kissing me as he took his pants off. He and I managed to have hot passionate sex. *Present time. I am currently applying for positions in social work. I am currently being interviewed for positions at a mental hospital as a social worker. I am hoping it's a good match. I am extremely passionate about working in a mental hospital. Jason and I haven't fortunately run into each other after that one night. As soon as I saw the positive sign, I knew my life was going to forever change. I don't love Jason. I don't even really know him. Sure he is the captain of the football team and is highly intelligent but that is pretty much it. I don't sleep around with guys. I have slept with two other guys but they were my boyfriends and not a one a night stand. Tahni got me his phone number so we can talk. I was worried of course that my our baby would be rejected by their own father. What if he didn't want anything to do with me? What if he wants to marry me because he has to? I definitely don't want to trap him. But he does have a right to know. I texted Jason and asked him to meet me for coffee. We met at a secluded coffee shop on campus. "Isabella right?" "Izzie or Bell or Bella is fine." I said. "Ok Izzie. Can I buy you a cup of coffee?" "Sure I would like that." I said. He came back with two cups and we sat down. "Do you remember that party from six weeks ago? I was slightly buzzed but I was aware of what was going on. You and I danced and we slept together .There is no easy way to say this but I am pregnant." "Are you sure it's mine?" he asked. "You are the only one I have slept with in over a year. So yes this is our baby." "What do you want to do about it?" he asked. "I am keeping our baby. You do whatever you want but I love this baby." I said. "I want to be a part of this baby's life. Should we get married?" "I don't want to." "I mean this baby should have both of its parents." He said. "I don't want to trap you." "It takes two. We should get a place." Before I could say anything, he came in again. "Do you love me?" he asked. "Love you? I don't even know you." I said. "Alright if we are having a baby we need to at least tolerate each other. I want to take care of the mother of my child. My parents gave me a house. I would love it if we moved in together. You could have your own room. My father wants me to start in his company after graduation. I could take care of you and our baby." He said. "Alright. You will not touch me. You will sleep in your own bed. I am still a single woman." I said. "Tough one aren't you?" he said with a smirk. I rolled my eyes. "One more thing. In order for this to happen, you need to pretend to be my girlfriend. They are kind of strict towards that. I want them to think that we were a couple before we tell them about the baby. Can we meet for dinner tonight? I would love my parents to meet you." he said. We spent the next few hours discussing our lives. He seems to be an easy to person to talk to. "What are you graduating with?" "A bachelor's in social work and psychology." I said. He smiled. "I have to go. I need to get ready for a final interview at a hospital." I said. "Pick you up at five thirty?" he asked. I nodded. "Meet me at my dorm." I said. I then got up and went back to the dorm. I put on a pencil skirt and a blazer. "Good afternoon Miss James. They will see you in a minute." A receptionist said. "Hello Ms. James. I know you are about ready to graduate. We really like you. We would love it if you would start after you graduate. Is there anything else you need or want to say?" The boss asked. "I will need some time off in about eight months." "We can arrange it. Is there a reason in particular?" "I am pregnant. So I need some time." "Oh don't worry about it. We will see you in a few months then?" he asked. I signed a contract and went to get ready for my 'date' with Jason. I chose a skirt and blouse and a pair of heels. "I got the job." I said as Jason led me to his car. "Congratulations. Now my parents need to think we are on the same page. We have been together for about six months. Other than that be yourself. They will love you." he said. "Even though we don't love each other?" I retorted. "You will be fine." He said. He then drove me to his parents' estate. It was huge. I lightly twirled my black hair around my fingers. I have brown eyes and I am pretty skinny and I am five six. Jason has blonde hair and blue eyes. He is six foot one. "Jason. Come in. This must be the girl you have been telling us about." A tall woman with blonde hair and piercing blue eyes said. He nodded and led me in. "Hi, I am Christina." She said as she shook my hand. "Izabella." I said. "Christina, is Jason here yet?" an older guy with black and grey hair asked. "He is and he brought his girlfriend." "Son are you almost ready to take part of the company? Hello my name is Patrick. What is your name?" he asked as he shook my hand. "Izabella." I said. "She also likes Izzie. And yes dad I am ready." Jason said as his arm snuck around my waist protectively. "Let's eat then." His mom said as she led us into the dining room. We had a nice meal and nice conversation. His mom is nice and easy to talk to. They asked about my major and how long we have been dating. "Do you think we should tell them?" I asked. "I guess." He said. "Mom and dad. Izzie and I have been together for a while and we are having a baby." he said. "I know we are young but we are getting financially stable. I have a job waiting. We were both old enough to make a decision and this is the outcome." I said. "I like her." his dad said. After dinner, we headed back to campus. "The house will be ready as soon as possible. Five bedrooms and six bathrooms and a pool. Take care of our baby tonight. I have a class at eight tomorrow morning so how about we do lunch?" he asked. "Ok. I am shadowing but that sounds good to me." I said. I woke up the next morning just in time to throw up. "Dude are you pregnant?" Debbie asked as I got up after throwing up. "I am." "Who is the daddy?" She asked as she helped me brushed my hair. "Jason Toviano." I said. "Aww." She said. After a few hours of shadowing, Jason and I met for lunch. "So we can move off campus and into the house. I can take care of you." he said. The next day, Debbie and Tahni helped me to put my clothes into boxes. "We have like four weeks left of college." She said. "I know." I said. My things were loaded into my car and I drove to my new house. Jason met me at the door and carried my boxes into the house. He led me to the second floor and to a huge bedroom with a king bed. "Your bathroom is connected and there is a big closet for you. There are two other bedrooms on this floor. One is mine and the other is for the baby. There are two downstairs in the basement. This is your home now too. Have friends over. I will let you get settled." He said as walked out of the room. *Jason's POV . I am going to be a dad. Izabella came to me and told me she was pregnant. I have seen her across campus and she is absolutely gorgeous. I have watched her from afar for too long. One night at a party, I could tell she was a little buzzed. We danced and I just couldn't resist her gorgeous lips. I kissed her and couldn't help it. She and I started dancing then it got a little hotter and I led her to a bedroom. Then we had the best sex ever. When she told me she was pregnant, I felt complete. I asked her if she loved me but she said she didn't even know me. I have been watching that woman since I transferred in two years ago. We talked and I said I would take care of her and the baby. She didn't want to trap me. I took care of it and told her about the house. She then moved in with me and I have my love and baby. *Izzy's POV. I unpacked and collapsed on the bed. I then fell asleep. I love my baby with all my being. I am thinking that the baby will be due around December. Before I could blink, it was graduation day. Jason and I coexist. I am eight weeks along. It is now the beginning of May. Jason went to start with his father's company and I started to work with the hospital. "Iz we have an incoming. Arriving in the ER. Needs a psych consult." My boss Kayla Tripp said. "No prob. I will go consult." I said. "So apparently I heard that you are having a baby." she said. "I am." I said as I tucked my phone into my pocket. I then walked to the ER. "Incoming. Found with arms slit and semi-conscious now. Found a suicide note. Needs to be stitched up and then all yours." The emergency room doctor said. I nodded and waited until they were done. I then spent a good hour talking to the patient and her family. I then proceeded to explain the admission procedure and took her up to the psych floor.

*Picture of Izzie.