Truth... or not

Chapter 1

Well, I can't believe I am going to college. I know me, I would have been even happier, but my brother keeps acting strage since we found out I managed to be accepted to the same college as him: Columbia.

I have been worried all week about his behavior, but as I hear my alarm Monday morning, I automatically forget about problems, jump out of bed and I can't believe I can't even hold my grin all morning... I can't even make it more subtle.

I pack a few things in my bagpack, because I know my things are already in the car, and I go downstairs. My mom is waiting for me in the living room. She is more nervous than I am. I know her and she is so happy for me, but somehow her nervousness makes me wonder if it really is because of me going to college.

"I haven't seen a grin that big since your bother first let you hang out with his friends... you were only five" my mom says as she sees me coming down the stairs.

"I don't know... I'm just really nervous. First because it's about college of course, but it would have been perfect if..." but I cannot finish my sentence because this will only lead to me crying or breaking something and none of those is a good option.

"I know... You know it is not your fault, right? He left because he wanted to" she tries to comfort me, but I can see her eyes sparkling with tears.

"can we not do this right now?" I hear a too familiar voice from the door and my eyes become wide open as I turn around to see James.

"What... How..." I can't even move as I see my bigger brother at the front door.

"Look... I'm not happy you are going to Columbia and you won't fight me because of that... but I can't let my little sister drive alone today" he says and a little smile shows up on his face... A smile I haven't seen in months, since I got into Columbia.

If he had made a remark like this six months ago, until now, I would have yelled at him and rushed crying in my bedroom, he would have slammed the door and after ten minutes or so, he would have been in my room holding me as he would apologize for breaking his sister's heart... But this isn't us, not anymore and not since... he... heft.

"I missed your smile, brother" I say as I hug him.

"Don't get too emotional. It's just for today" he half smiles to make it sound better, but it hurts hearing him saying this, but I keep my mouth shut because if I try to say something I will cry and make this day even worse.

The drive to Columbia could have lasted even three hours, but as my crazy brother drives, we are there in only one. Thank God I will be buying me own car, not that I thought he would have driven me anywhere, but is a nice thing to think about.

As I see the campus, my dark thoughts disappear within seconds. I'm at a loss for words. I see the main buildings where are the classes, a huge yard, a huge parking  and the two enormous buildings with the dorms. I'm pretty sure my mouth is open and people are staring at me, but as much as I hate people looking at me, I can't help but staring at the beauty. Maybe I see it that way because I'm pretty much into architecture, but it's just amazing.

"Stop staring like a little kid. Come on!" my brother rushes me to the first building where I suppose my dorm is. As I walk behind him I can't help but notice he isn't angry with me staring, he seems nervous and in alert... I don't really know why but I don't want to upset him more than I already did so I keep my mouth shut.

(ok, so this is my first chapter. I really hope this story will be good enough and I appreciate every read. Thank you.)