The Next Stage (COMPLETED)

THIRTY TWO: Okay

"Hey, why are you crying?" He asked. Nilagay ko yung kamay ko sa mukha ko at totoo nga, umiiyak nga 'ko.

I didn't answer him. Ewan, ang gulo parin ng nararamdaman ko. Sobrang mixed emotions.

"I'm sorry." I stopped upon hearing what he said.

"Don't feel sorry for me, it's my fault. Kitang-kita naman na kasalanan ko talaga." I said, still looking at the window, enjoying the view of the beautiful clouds. Buti hindi pa masyadong madilim kahit anong oras na.

Naramdaman kong napahinga siya ng malalim.

"Are we still together?" He asked, looking at me.

"What do you mean?" Tanong ko pabalik, pretending that I didn't understand his question.

"I mean, ilang beses na natin 'tong tinatanong sa isa't isa, yet we still don't know the answer." He said, still looking at me.

Na kung pwede lang matunaw, eh kanina ko pa nagawa.

"Pero ako, I wanted to know the answer coming from you, right at this moment. Because I badly want to hear it kasi ang hirap eh, it's so hard to think whether my actions will be okay whenever I'm with you, whether tama ba lahat ng sinasabi ko kasi, baka hindi tama. But, if you're still not ready, then---"

"Yes, Zach." I said, while staring at him, while staring at each other, eye to eye.

"What?" He said, while his eyes are in shock.

"I am tired to think of all the what ifs, mga bakit, mga paano at sa lahat ng mga oras na umiiyak ako, sinisisi ang sarili ko sa lahat ng nangyari. I am tired of reminding myself na, break na kami kahit yung puso ko, eh gustong gusto na i-save 'to, iligtas kung ano yung meron tayo." I said, while catching my breath.

But I'm willing to be breathless, masabi ko lang lahat ng saloobin ko at para maayos narin ang lahat.

"I just want to be happy, Zach. And I'm choosing you, Zach...because you make me happy. And I'm sorry, sa lahat ng mga inperfections na meron ako, sorry dahil nag jump agad ako sa conclusion, sorry if I ran away from you, if I didn't let you to talk to me, to explain yourself, to give you a chance. I'm sorry dahil ipinaabot ko pa sa ganito ang lahat, sorry if I'm such a fool on making a decision to let my happiness be taken away from me."

He held both of my hands, while still staring at each other, eyes that is full of tears yet eyes that is full of love.

"It's okay. I know that you're at fault too, yet I already forgave you because you deserve forgiveness. Pero, hindi kita masisisi kung nagawa mo lahat ng 'to, because in the first place, hinayaan ko yung sarili ko na mapunta sa posisyon kung saan posible kang masaktan, at paghinalaan ako. Sorry because even if I didn't sign the paper, nasaktan ka parin, and I let you thought that I was going to be married with Charisse.

"I love you, you know that. You are the most precious thing that I have right now and our relationship is the most amazing thing that happened in my entire life. And from now on, I won't let one of my mosts be taken away from me." Then he kissed my forehead.

"Thank you, Zach. Thank you for everything." I said then I let myself hug him very tight.

"God, I missed you, I miss everything about you." He said so I smiled. Ako rin, sobra sobra ko 'tong namiss.

"So, are we really okay now? Can we start over again?" He asked kaya napangiti nanaman ako, I don't care kung magmukha na 'kong baliw sa harap ng mga tao, kakangiti ko.