The Facts. *(BTS x FTM Transgender)*

Growing

The past days have been a blur. I'm no longer allowed to be on my own, thats new.

Jimin is as clingey as ever.

Namjoon tried (and failed) to teach me how to rap.

Jin has a new cooking assistant (me).

Tae and I are grounded for sexual activity during breakfast (he put his hand on my thigh and i fed him a potato).

Yoongi wont stop holding my hands (not complaining).

Hoseok has been hugging me a lot and telling me really bad jokes.

Jungkook had been beaten on overwatch, without cheating this time.

And I, well I'm holding up alright. My scars are fading, I dont know why but it makes me sad. Like i'm loosing a piece of me along with it, like erasing a part of my life.

I started drawing on myself again. I relaxes me. It just add's another notch to the things that BTS doesn't know about me i guess. Noona says i should tell them about the drawing other wise it might get out of hand, as well as they will probably find out one day anyway.

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Tae called us all down for a v-live game of truth and dare. "I was forced into this." i say to the phone that was set us on the counter.

Tae pulls me back into his lap, resting his head on my shoulder. "Namjoon, truth or dare." Jimin starts. Namjoon picks dare. His dare is to sing serendipity. Me and Tae were already in tears from Namjoon's beginning.

Tae fell backwards bringing me with him. We were both gasping for air as Namjoon finished.

"Boyfriend, truth or dare." Tae and I sat up together wiping away tears.

"Boyfriend had a name you know" I reply to Jungkook, "Truth." i say stubbornly.

"AWWW thats boreing!" Jungkook said. I sat quietly waiting for my question. Tae chimed in next to my ear. "Who do you like the most?"

"Why would you ask that? I cant answer that and you know it." The group persisted on me answering the question.

"Fine. I like Tae's and  Jimin's cuddels are the best, they are tied. Jin's jokes are amazing. Yoongi's hands fit mine perfectly. Namjoon's massages are devine. and Hoseoks hugs make me super happy. ooh, and Jungkook is the easiest to beat in any game." I said folding my arms as if i was daring for someone to question it.

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My phone was blowing up enough so i had to get up.  "Jiminie? i need to get up" I groaned and suggled closer to my neck. "Jimin.." He graoned again but didn't move. I moved tho.

I walked across the room gingerly, my phone was still blowing up.

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Twitter:

"die you faggot" "you dont deserve them" "How dare you steal them" "whore" "bitch"....

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-Ride to a fan meet-

I decided to come along to a fan meet for the first time since i met these loveley men.

I was scrolling through twiiter, reading every message and comment on my photos. every. one.

Yoongi must have noticed my face as i read all the messages i had been getting. He plucked my phone out of my hands and shoved it into his bag. I reached forward for his bag but his chucked it over the seat to Jin who was eves-dropping.

I sat back, glaring at Yoongi. At least i tried to glare, it usually looks for like a puppy face.

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Sorry for the short chapter, I'm going on a weekend camp and dysphoria is going to be running high. I dont want to go but I'm in scouts so i kinda have to. Welllll bye for now! -Author-nim-