as i stare at his hands that will soon cause chills to run down my spine and spread down my legs i imagine needles, red hot with the blaze of a thousand suns fueled by many broken hearts.
wondering, why?
why me? out of all the beautiful women on all of the planets in all of the galaxies, why me?
he stares into me with the intensity of an eagle's gaze, yet i still wonder, why me?
he places his cold hand on my warm breast, seeping lies into my heart underneath.
soon the lies will reach my fragile heart, and it will explode like a supernova.
my new heart will form with a cage around it,
for you have hurt me two times now, and i do nothing but answer your calls to dance in the night with only the moon and stars watching.
this is why.
he watches me as i leave, his green eyes saddened.
my brown eyes weeping, he moves onto someone new.
i am not as beautiful as her, for she is the god of beauty, and i am a rock on the road blocking him from his final destination.
i lower my caged heart into a pool of sharks.
they do not want to dance in the night, they want to take control.
they latch onto my breast like a newborn starving for attention,
they do not massage my back, instead they leave bruises on my ass, for they are never satisfied.
it does not matter whom is in my bed, for i will always miss him.
the sharks do not make chills run down my spine like he did, instead, i weep for him.
i weep because i miss him. i weep because the sharks have no emotion, instead they fill their veins with nicotine and thc to escape memories of their past lovers.
they dont treat me like a person, for i am an object in their eyes,
a small, fragile piece of china that has been glued back together and is missing pieces.
i am vulnerable, all because i chose to walk away from my problems and not talk about them with my one true lover.
i weep every night for him, because no matter who is beside me, they are not him, and will never be him.
