Slam the door on me, I won't mind
I'll smile and say I understand
Give me reasons, a purpose to find
Give me a rope, a ladder, a hand
You gave it to me at first
You stayed quiet while thinking bloody murder
After I thought I was safe, the dam won't burst
Pulled your hand back so that I fell further
The walls came down with a crash
It was the worst day I ever had
All things I'd thought but you left in a flash
Did you have fun? You did? I'm glad
That I could be of service as a time pass
All those hours, all those late night talks
All the times come down to this, time lapse
Didn't know you'd throw me into the rocks
A cliff it was, I thought I could make it
Not on my own, you were there then
You didn't have to be, didn't know you would fake it
And shove me down deeper and darker in this den
Now I burrow in the dark, this is all I have
Cuz I don't have you, I'll take what I don't want
I sit here with regrets, run to guilt and you laugh
Now you're something I need but won't want
You know I hate you, more than I should
Cuz hating makes you hateful, I'm full of hate now
And this feeling's so much stronger than I could
Ever be, look at me now and see how
To destroy yourself with something you know won't last
To hell with this, and fate, nothing can take me down
Like I do myself, hold my breath and suffocate fast
It takes a few minutes to hang, a few minutes to drown
I'm sinking, I reach out, I call out
But nothing's in my hands, in my chest
I'm hollow, numb, feeling less about
Me, this world and everything, so all the best
Trying to bring me back to life
Oh, wait....no, you won't even try
Cuz you're the one with the rope and the one with the knife
So just leave, turn around and let me die
I feel better when I write, so I'm scribbling
Stabbing the page with my pen
It's not working, throw it away, shadows nibbling
Away at my inside, god damn men
And send then all to hell, all
I never want to see that face again
But I know I'll be dreaming that face again, fall
To the ground, there's no solution to me because I cause myself pain
