They run through veins, through distant
Organs I didn't know I had.
Distant hospital that holds the sick in prison beds.
Ice cold memories
Of broken trust run through my shivering body.
Memories too harsh to even live through.
They haunt me every day, tears at night
Throwing me out of my comfort zone,
He's laying there, cancer
Cutting off his air support.
Untrustworthy cells.
These memories run through towns I want to run from,
But there's no open door to go through. They're locked, like trust.
Secrets spill, overflow the river bank.
Tug an hang on my legs like slimy milfoil.
Vines, like people, pull me with more drama,
Like water.
They push me under.
Like cancer, poison
Don't trust anyone, even if it may save my life.
What happens? I'll be stuck.
Dreams become nightmares.
Clowns scaring me, seeing him laying in the sick bed.
I hear the monitor's last beep,
Signaling that he's dead. Gone. The
Winter water that controls me, is like glass ice, so when someone
Pushes me in, I freeze, no one to catch me when
I fall, wanting to reach out to him.
Why did he leave me all those years ago?
But this is my life.
Yes I'm without a father, but he's here with me,
As a spirit.
He watched me graduate, like a proud father he is.
All I can say is,
I'm glad to call him my daddy, my blood.
