REGRET (Taeyong x Reader)

Day 10

"Bye Seulgi" I waved at her while walked back to my car to drive home.

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"I'm home" I mumbled as I took my shoes off "Y/N I need you to sign these papers as well-"

"Hello?" hh I coulnd't see her anywhere she must be sleeping, I sighed and went upstairrs towards her bedroom. "y/n" I called as I opened the door "are you-"

my heart sunk.

In the middle of the room, there she was. Peacefully laying on her bed with her wedding dress on.

"...Y/N" I whispered softly as I approched her

There was no answer no movement

"y/n this is not funny, are you playing with me again?" I said and reached out for her face.

she was ice cold

I then saw a piece of paper in her hand adressed to me.

I carefully took it out of her hand and unfolded it

Dear Taeyong,

Thank you for everything you have done for me, for always making me happy and smile with your angelic smile. Thank you for staying by my side even tho i'm just an useless woman who could do nothing but annoy you.

I know I haven't been a good wife to you. I tried my best, but I could never satisfy you. I am sorry Taeyong after all you've done for me, the only thing i could do was to write this usless letter.

Lat month I went to the doctor for a check up and they found out I had breast cancer level 4. They couldn't do anything about it it was too late.

As time went by, my health condition only became worse and worse. I'm sorry that I only cooked instant noodles to you, I tried to make your favorite dishes but my body felt too weak for that.

And I'm sorry for annoying you with my voice, cause of cancer my voice sounds terrible, but as my health grew worse, my throat started to hurt very badly and I couldn't speak, or swallow  anything.

I knew you would want to divorce me in the future. Seulgi is a good woman, she will make you happy and be a much better wife than I am.

Forget about me Taeyong. I am not worth remembering. I always wanted to stay by your side, but I guess fate doesn't agree with me. Live a happy life with Seulgi. She will make you happy.

I'm sorry that I couldn't say proper goodbye to you but remember that I am by your side no matter how far we are apart from each other.

I love you Taeyong. I'm sorry that  couldn't make you happy. I love you.

P.S. look under the bed;)

I didn't realize that my tears was streaming down my face. I wiped my tears away to go look under the bed.
I pulled it out.

I found a red scarf

There was also a note attached to it:

Don't get sick during winter time, keep warm:) Sorry that this is the only present I could give to you before I leave this world, but I hope you like it Taeyongibaba.

Is this why she asked me if I prefer red or pink?

I never wanted to taste her instant noodle again but right now thats the only thing I wanted to eat.

I never wanted to hear her voice ever again but now I was willing to give up everything just to hear her call my name.

My tears were streaming endlessly down my face again as I looked over at Y/N.

I hold her hand begging her to come back and telling her i'm sorry.

But she couldn't hear me

And I knew it was too late.

I knew it was to late for me to become a better husband at to love her better.

Her silence scared me.

All the cruel things I did to her, every kick every punch. How I made her feel, cry in pain. The harsh words I had shouted at her, and telling her to shut up.

I regret it all.

(LAMOOOO IDK WHAT I'M THINKING BUT YEAH)