Do Over (13W)

Chapter 1

"What am I supposed to be seeing?"

"Just a...shadow over the moon. Look, it's growing slowly..."

"A shadow...growing slowly....."

"Just little bit by little bit....look closely."

"Wait, I see it. I see it.....It's kinda scary."

"Is it?"

She inches closer to me for warmth, pushing me to do something. Hold her, kiss her, something. But instead, being the shy, awkward teen I am, I do nothing, letting her slip through my fingers. Hannah Baker, gone forever...

I awake with a startle. I haven't had a dream like that in awhile. I look at the clock and it says 7:00 AM. Might as well get ready for work. These last six years have been a continuous cycle. Of course, that was after I graduated from Liberty, then with a Bachelor's in Earth and Space Sciences from UCLA, and getting a job here in LA.

Everyday is the same. Get up, change, go to work, come home, and do nothing but think of the past. Of course, that's the last thing I should be thinking about. It's the main reason I'm on my antidepressants. And yet, no matter all the treatment I go through, she always finds a way back to me. 

Hannah Baker took my heart with her to that grave and left me lifeless. Not able to love or laugh again. My friends tell me I should go out and find someone, but no one will ever be as good as Hannah. She was the heart and soul of my everyday life. Her smile gave me butterflies. All I wanted was to hold her and kiss her and tell her I love her. But it was too late. She was gone. Forever.