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For you who would never read this,

Jims..

Hi jims, long time no see! 오랜만이 만날 때 ! hehe. I'm sorry I don't ever get tired of writing about you. Everytime i think of you i always write it so there are no missing memories about you.

Remember me?

A girl who sending you so many list 'what i really wanna do with you' + pictures. Yeah i'm still the same as so many years ago. Still trully madly deeply perfectly in love with you. A girl who always claim that you were mine.

A girl who always love being called Jeon Taya. I choose Jeon than the other first name cause I know you love Jeon Kookie so much and I hope you'll love me as much as you love him. Isn't it strange? Haha

I hope you'll understand someday that I really love you just the way you are. I love your personality. I love your eyed-smile. I love your high note. I love your body move on the stage. I love you even with your chubby cheeks or not. You don't really need to get diet. You've amazed me, ah not only me but also the girls all around this world.

I can't explain why you were really important to me. You just like my air, without air I can't breath.

I still really want to be next to you. Hold your face in my hands and look deep into your eyes.

But,
I know that you've fall in love with her eventhough i still guessing is it true or not,but something that must you know i really want you to be happy, not just happy but healthy at the same time. I really want you had someone as your home or just to be place you can lay down your body.

You love her,right? It's very obvious from your eyes jim. The way you look at her, the way you help her when she forgot the choreo. I may not really know your daily activity but i can feel your heart.

Don't worry. I'll never hurt her. I know that she is your sunshine right now so I won't steal your happiness. I know this is the biggest liar that comes out from my mind "I'm happy when you're happy". I'm trully said that both of you look so cool. She can dance well than me and I hope she is your miss right.

Please dont forget to take a rest, eat your food and don't be stressfull, you're too young to be that stressfull.

If i could flashback about my first impression, when look at you my lips spreading into a smile, i know it was due to the fact that i was looking at a computer screen not directly your face, but it was something for me.

I can hear my hearthbeat because of how loud and fast it was, my whole face no doubt turning bright red. I think red can be my favorite color after black😂

Park Jimin.

Park Jimin? Park Jimin as in BTS Park Jimin?! It's sounds crazy right?

Yeah, i'm going crazy.

The thing about Park Jimin is that I basically worship him as my dance god.

I had been clicking on random dance videos, i had immeditaly spotted you, may eyes never moving away from the screen if it was you.

You was absolutely adorable with your black hair ,thick lips and chubby cheeks that makes me want to hug you but all changed when you start dancing. Your body move so effortlessly and so powerfull.

Everything you did was absolutely perfect and i quickly became obsessed on you.

You were never leaving my thoughs even i as slowly began to forget about you. I love you as much as i love dance but i'll stop dancing so it's mean that i'll stop loving you.

Thankyou for being my first love.

March 18th, 2018
Jeon Taya