Dear World,
I'm pretty normal for a kis my age. I play sports, do okay in school, and have a few friends while still being nice to people. Though, I'm not really like my friends. I don't have much of an interest in anime or Netflix, because I prefer to be on YouTube or reading. I am currently working with my chorus teacher to write a song about a girl I was in love with for three years, and still kind of am, not saying a word because she was straight. She was what I thought was perfect: beautiful smile, wonderful laugh, a sparkling attitude, and such a bright way of looking at life. I prefer to be doing sports or being on-stage for theater then to be at home,under my blankets and watching anime. I love writing, but spend a lot of days scraping my ideas because I fear they aren't good enough for people to see. I love filling out storylines, but struggle with letting them take shape. I often find myself with my own thoughts, the only thing that protects me is music I sing or I listen to to defend myself sometimes. Sometimes I wish that there was someone who was interested in what I was, instead of trying to conform to what my friends like. I love them, but I just can't keep up with most conversations. But, you've got to keep your head up and push on, because life will try to push you back down. I'm glad that I can go somewhere and not have to worry about anyone looking at me weird or being afraid that I stand out too much. I'm glad that my friends would be there for me, no matter what, but sometimes I wish I could just scream out how I feel: angry, upset, confused. I often can't. I have built up my walls of over happiness to high, and they are not coming down soon. Hopefully, it can be pulled away.
Love,
@HorseGamer
