So what to do now? I mean, I'm starting counseling tomorrow, it's funny how that worked out perfectly timed. Now I have much more time to sleep and think about shit that matters. I have a job interview coming up, so I won't have way too much time to think once I get the job. So long as I can do something productive, I'll be okay. This situation 100% gave me the inspiration for my voice application, so I have that going for me at least.
And actually this will be really good. More time, more space to think, a better chance to succeed in everything I'm doing. No more worrying about what I'm doing affecting someone else in a major way. I feel... it's stupid but I feel really free. I can spend some time making sure I'm not too "emotionally traumatized from such a horrid experience" I mean the whole thing was just sooooooooo awful. (Sarcasm just in case you couldn't tell). And in a while, I can go back to my normal life. Sleeping at reasonable hours, enjoying alone time, putting more effort into my other relationships, flirting with everyone like there's no tomorrow. I'm just trying to see the better side of this. Like yeah, it sucks having to deal with the discomforts of breaking up with someone. And I'm definitely a little embarrassed that I let this all happen again, but it's not going to drag me down. I'm going to get better, I'm going to enjoy life, and maybe someday I'll be with someone who I can work with instead of against. I look forward to then.
(Just in case, Makai you're the only person I know who knows this account exists. No one else on Wattpad even reads my shit. Just unfollow or whatever else if it bothers you, I'm sticking to the "not making this public" thing.)
