Killua x Reader- Plastic Voice

Plastic Voice

The feelings that I hid away

Have grown so strong, the words Im dying to say

I dont think I can suppress, its just so meaningless

Plastic, plastic, wont you notice?

The honest truth, oh why

Wont it stay inside

My name is (Y/N), Im 14 years old and I work for the Zoldyck family. Actually, I have for pretty much my whole life. Master Silva was very kind and saved my life when I was younger, in exchange I would work for his family. I didnt exactly have a family and wanted to repay my debt, so I agreed. I was trained under Gotoh, since I was going to be a personal servant and needed to be very skilled. After I was finished being trained, I was assigned as the personal servant to Master Killua. Since we were close in age, Master Silva thought it would be a good idea to have me serve Master Killua because he thought I could relate to him and understand him better than someone older than him. Mistress Kikyo was slightly opposed to this idea, not liking the idea I could possibly become close to Master Killua, almost like a friend, but the decision was already made.

However, after serving the family for several years, I did grow close to Master Killua. Or at least, I feel close to him; Im not sure how he feels about me. I do try to hide this though, because of what Mistress Kikyo said. I would like to be friends with Master Killua, though it is clear from the looks Mistress Kikyo gives me while I am with Master Killua sometimes, that it is obvious she does not approve of me.

Its hard sometimes though, when we are alone together. My feelings seem to arise and get in the way of work. No matter how hard I try, I cant contain the subtle blush or my stuttering, I always manage to become flustered somehow when Im around him. It would be so easy if I could just tell Master Killua how I felt, or if I at least knew how he felt

Why is this so difficult?

Everyday, its all the same

You and I play, this confusing game

I try to match your darting eyes

You never look into mine

It was another day just like any other. Master Killua was in his room, reviewing a job his parents wanted him to take, even though he clearly expressed disinterest. I was with him, helping him to organize the details and get everything set up for when he would be leaving. Besides discussing the details of the mission, we barely spoke to each other while I was packing up some items for him.

When I was done, he asked if I would help him finalize his mission plan before I left. I of course agreed. Its not like I had a choice, but I also wanted to. I sat down on a chair that was placed beside his bed and picked up a few documents on his target. I leaned back in my seat, and even though it wasnt the most comfortable thing to be sitting on, I made the most of it and began to read.

I read the documents, and no doubt was the target strong and skilled. Not strong enough though. From the known weaknesses listed, he would be an easy kill for Master Killua.

So, what do you think? He seems pretty strong to me. Master Killua asked.

I looked up from the papers, expecting him to be looking at me now, but it seemed like he hadnt turned away from his computer once since I first stepped foot into the room.

I sighed to myself, but answered him anyway. Master Killua, you have faced many strong opponents before, but none of them have ever matched your strength. And according to this mans known listed weaknesses, killing him should be simple for you. I answered him.