Farewell to my long lost love (short stories )

Yidlyn

I write what's on my mind

My name is yidlyn, 20 years old. Papers and pens are my friends, when I'm inspired and hurt i write things

After writing, most of my works will be in trash or it will be kept as a memories

I never tried to make any stories

Or ask someone to read them because I don't want

I'm a happy go lucky person

So now that you have an idea of what kind of person i am, i will start telling stories about my life

Im a person who easily be in love with someone else but once i start to love you i will keep you for long and i will only love you

I will adore you and devote you unconditional

I'm easily to be in love but so hard to move on

So i met him, i started to like him

We started to talk, chat, laugh, walk, eat, study and etc together

I fall inlove

His smile, his smell, those eyes, those crazy conversations, sweet words, teases

Slowly but surely i fall inlove in every details, what i mean by slowly is i slowly (carefully) love all his things in a fast way

Months we knew each other

He confessed his feelings which i also felt the same way but I don't want everything to be so easy for us so I didn't say that i can be his girlfriend

I still want us to know each other

As long as his at my side i know i will never stop loving him... the months i am with him I treasure them so much

We are in peak of everything, all things turn out so good

I never like or love anyone else because once i love someone it's so hard to replace it

Every words he will say i kept it

I trusted him so much

My life turned out to be much more fun with him

One day I thought about what if i lose him? I already forgot to be happy without him

He was my life, he was my joy, he was my happiness... I can give everything for him

That's how i 100% and truly loved him

I will keep him forever because he was my happiness

This words which i kept in my mind

That i will never lose a person like him

He was very different, he was unique, he was my comfort

We are so happy

I thought

He started to change... dramatically, he become a liar

The trust i build so easily was starting to be broken so easy too

My heart was so broken I can't believe that the person that i trust, i love will do such things to me

I started to lose myself

I started to get scared

I started to question myself

I started to love him with frightened

Why can't i just have him? Why do i need to get hurt? Tell me... because i love him I don't wanna lose him

Tell me what can i do for us to just go back from the time we are still happy