Tonight is not the first time I can't sleep
It's the 30 the time in two months
I can't really understand where the problem is
But it really scares me
To be insomniac
And I really hate it
Passing the night
Tired but thinking
Eyes closed but crying
Mouth shut but screaming
I can't get what's wrong with me
I close my eyes , I see my day repeating
I dream of people I never talked to
Thinking about meaningless things
The ups n downs in my head are keeping
And the imagination is going on
I just want to take a break
To stop it
I want to stop my mind
Just 5hours
Per day
The Time I need to sleep
And stop thinking
Insomnia scares me more than nightmares
Because a nightmare I can escape it just by opening my eyes
But
Insomnia have no escape
No exit door
Tonight, I decided to fight it
Maybe writing about it can get it out of me
Or
Me out of it
Well maybe this night will be the last.. Or just the first of thousands more...
