Fallen Angel

chapter 1

There she was in the bathroom again with the knife to her wrist. She thought ‘no one knows what  i am going through. no one believes me I have no one.’ She knew that the pain would go away but if her mom caught her again she would have to do a 51/50 in the psych ward and they’ll give her some pills and send her home again without even a word.

She knew that she had to be the “perfect daughter” because her mom was a big part of the community and her step dad was the best surgeon in town. She had to get done she needed to get back to the party her mom was throwing.

Just then a teen boy walked in. He saw the blood on her wrist and quickly grabbed a black wash rag put it on her wrist. He said to the girl “don’t worry i won’t tell anyone if you don’t.” he pulled out a razor blade from his pocket. He said “hi, you may not know me that's because i am new in town. my name is Jacob Hill.”

The girl said “Hi, my name is Rose Cartman.”

Jacob said “Rose why you’re the stepdaughter of Dr. Cartman.”

Rose said “Yeah. I’m supposed to be the “perfect daughter” of Mr and Mrs Cartman.”

Jacob sized up Rose. Jacob thought to himself ‘Black hair probably dyed, blue eyes, curvy, skinny, lots of scars, and a lot of bruises.’  

Rose looked at Jacob and asked “why are you staring at me?”

Jacob snapped out of it. he said “huh?”

Rose said “you were staring at me for a long time.”

Jacob said “sorry i was just lost in thought.”

Rose asked “What were you thinking about?”

Jacob said “ Your scars. Did you know stretch mark lotion also works on scars. It makes them disappear faster.” He said quickly not trying to stare at the bruises on her arms and legs.

Rose looked down at her wrists and sighed “I guess so.”

She walked out of the bathroom said to her mom “Jacob and I are going out ok?”

Mrs. Cartman said to Rose “Ok have fun.”

Jacob and Rose went to the park. Jacob asked Rose “Have a cig?”

Rose who was now 19 said “Yeah i do. But how old are you?”

Jacob said “Why does that matter?”

Rose said “I don’t want to be contributing to a minor.”

Jacob said “I’m 19.” He took out his driver's licence.

She looked at it knowing what a fake one looks like and said “Ok here you go.” handed him a cigarette.

She knew smoking was a dirty habit but it calms her down.

Jacob looked at her and said "Why did you start cutting and smoking?"

Rose remembering what had started it all. she said “I started cutting after my big brother died in the war, I had no one left. My big brother was the only one who understood me. I was 17 then.” she started to cry because remembering him made her sad. “the reason why I started smoking is because one day I was at the park having one of my panic attacks and someone handed me a cigarette and a lighter and i lit it up and immediately felt better. I was 18 then and was out of high school. You see after my brothers death i had a lot of health problems.”

Jacob looked down not wanting to make her cry he said “I’m sorry it wasn’t my place to ask.”

She looked at the boy and said “Its ok I needed to remember. that's when my parents started to take interest in me because my brother wasn’t in the picture I needed to step up I needed to be the perfect child.”

Jacob asked “Why are you opening up to a perfect stranger?”

She said “You seem like a person who could keep secrets.”

Jacob smiled he knew in his heart that he was falling for this girl. The angel like face and beauty. Shes something like a fallen angel. She has a dark past but her angel-like features make her look like an angel. He sighed and smiled again.

Rose looked at him staring at her face and asked “What are you thinking about?”

Jacob said “I was thinking about you. How you are like a fallen angel.”’

Rose was caught off guard. She said “I’m nothing like a fallen angel.’

Jacob knew there was no getting through to her and dropped the subject.

A/n this is my first time publishing something like this so please go easy on me. Let me know what you think I'll update it again tomorrow.