Dear you

Dependency

Dear my love,
If only you loved me the way I love you.
I love your eyes. The way they are lagoons of green and blue. It shines with your kind and patient soul. Your smile is so rare and it tickles me to see the "chipped" tooth that you are embarrassed of. I am one of the only people that regularly sees it.
With your height, you tower over most but you are the least intimidating person I have ever met. You're thin yet toned build tells strangers of your countless hours of running to relieve stress from your studies (and me). Your rough hands show how much you train them outdoors with fire building and farming.
I will never understand why you took the time of day to speak with me. You are the definition of calm, where I am the complete opposite. I travel all over the place with my emotions. You rarely even react with emotions, especially with your monotone voice. (I love your voice more than you know)

Meeting you is such a blessing and I will forever be grateful. Your patient and kind love heals me. I am a mess of a person and you gladly see me for the mess I am. You think I am hilarious and good. I am not good but you do not know that yet. I am a monster in hiding and I have managed to trap a unicorn that actually likes me. Your hugs keep me sane and warm. Until I'm not.

I feel secure and safe with you. The thought of losing you breaks me and I could not handle it. Just finding out that you were with her before you met me makes me wary of how long you will stay. I am waiting for you to recognize all of my flaws and shortcomings. When you see these things, you will run for the hills, so I need to stay perfect for you. You are too good to me and I am too selfish to let you go.