Love isn't judged by Appearance

Chapter 17

" Pray God you can copeI stand outsideThis woman's workThis woman's worldOoooh it's hard on the manNow his part is overNow starts the craft of the FatherI know you've got a little life in you leftI know you've got a lot of strength leftI know you've got a little life in you yetI know you've got a lot of strength leftI should be crying but I just can't let it showI should be hoping but I can't stop thinkingAll the things we should've said that I never saidAll the things we should have done that we never didAll the things we should have given but I didn'tOh darling make it goMake it go awayGive me these momentsGive them back to meGive me that little kissGive me your ...I know you have a little life in you yetGive me your hand babeI know you have a lot of strength leftGive me your prayersI know you have a little life in you yetOoooh oooh ooohI know you have a lot of strength leftYour loved childI know you have a little life in you yetWhatever you need babyI know you have a lot of strength leftGive me your handI know you have a little life in you yetGive me you handI know you have a lot of strength leftI should be crying but I just can't let it showI should be hoping but I can't stop thinkingOf all the things we should've said that we never saidAll the things we should have done that we never didAll the things that you wanted from meAll the things that you needed tell meAll the things I should have given but I didn'tOh darling make it go awayJust make it go away" Zavians voice wakes me up. His voice is beautiful,And I wouldn't be lying when I said he kinda sounded like Maxwell. I didn't know he could sing as long as I've known him. I feel his lips gently touch my lips. I barely open my eyes,And I see him walking to the door just to about to open it when I speak. " I thought you said you would've leave." my voice croaks out. He rubs his head ,And barely turns his head to look at me. His voice is strained when he speaks like he's trying to hold something back. " Your parents,Drew,Kevin, And Courtney are waiting to see you."

Why won't he look at me? "O well you cam stay. I don't want you to leave Zavian."

He takes In a deep breath." Genesis I need to leave. I'm not In the right state of mind."

I hate talking to his back, but there's something wrong with him. I don't wanna pressure him. He just found out that I was pregnant with his child,but now I'm not because I miscarried. We're both not In the right state of mind. I don't want him all stressed. " Ok if it's best that you leave then leave. Do they know?"

"Know about what?"

"The baby." Just thinking about it almost brings me to tears. I'm still sore down there from the whole thing.

"Yeah..." I don't want to see them right now. Drew or Kevin maybe,but not my parents And definitely not Courtney when she found out she was pregnant a year ago. She had a abortion without Kevin knowing. I don't think he's forgiven her for it.

"I don't want to see them right now. When I see them I want you to be with me." He finally turns around to look at me. He avoids eye contact with me when he speaks. "I'm not coming back. I need to get away from all of this, and you too. Your fucking dad is threatening to beat my ass already. Saying that this shit is all my fault. When it's yours! If you would have-" The door opens cutting him off. Dr. Godfrey comes in. The tears that have formed In my eyes I quickly wipe them away. Zavian locks his jaw,and looks at the Dr.Godfrey. Dr.Godfrey has his eyes on me. "MD.Lane are you okay?" I shake my head and lie. " Yes." He doesn't believe me and looks between Zavian and I before saying. " Did I come In at the wrong time? I can leave." Zavian walks to the door his whole body just tense." Naw Doc. I'm leaving."

"Are you sure? I was going to discuss the loss of the baby and maybe the reason why."

"She'll tell me if not here's my number. Call me." Dr.Godfrey gives him his card telling him that if he has any questions to call him also. I'm on the verge of letting lose all of my tears,but I won't not In front of my doctor. "Ms.Lane you look upset. I'll come back later."

I clear my throat. "No no! Stay! I wanna know what happened."

"Ok. Well this isn't unusual at all for women-" I cut him off not wanting to hear the rest of his sentence. I lost my child because I'm overweight.

"So you're telling me I lost my child because of my weight?" He raises his eyebrows.

" No. You don't lose a child over being overweight. I was saying that this happens to women all the time during their first pregnancy so don't feel guilty. It's really hard to pinpoint the reason of a miscarriage." Relief floods my body.

"Oh ok. When can I leave?"

"I'm gonna ask that you come check up during the next week or so, but you're free to leave whenever. You're gonna be In pain for awhile. No sex or sexual activities."

I blush." Ok and I understand."

" Alrighty then whenever you're ready just call a nurse to bring you you're release papers."

I thank him and he leaves. I'm depressed. I can't believe Zavian blamed this all on me. I already feel bad enough. He just made me feel worse. What if he doesn't love me anymore?

Sooooooooooo yeah!! Well I'm gonna upload against hopefully and again tonight!! Tell me what y'all think!!! O and sorry that the lyrics are all jumbled up I just copy and pasted them. The song is if you don't know it This Womans Work by Maxwell :)