Flash

The Flash

The thunder rolls in succession to the corresponding lightning which illuminated my surroundings as I stand there in a darkened back alley; the mild shower feels like millions of cool needles as each droplet hits my warm skin. I stand there in a soaked tank top and sweat pants as the hour has come to meet my maker. Feeling helpless as if the grand reaper has knocked on my door, I fall to my knees while the sound of the thunder and the faint roar of the evening shower fade out into dead silence.....
The only sound was

thump,thump,
thump, thump

my heart beat pounded hard as if it was going to jump out of my chest.Everything went to slow motion as if time was freezing.

This is it, everything in life had led to this.
Kneeling there in my perceived silence with my eye lightly closed, I thought about my life. In that instance my life flashed before my eyes.

I thought about my baby boy who never was cause in a drunken rage I threw his mother down the stairs as I walked out ,not caring what happened to either of them. How old would he be? What would his name be? Then I think about my girl who is four years old , I think. Now that's a shame, might as well be the same as my boy with no name, at least to me anyways, for I'm never around. So that's my glorious family life my business life isn't much better I admit to myself as I think about the people I swindled or robbed....

Realizing what a bastard I have been and what a treacherous life I chose to live I started to wonder, how many lives would have been better if I was my boy with no name, if I never was.

As my life contemplation comes to an end, I calm down and get a grip on reality.
"This was bound to be my fate sooner or later" I say out loud as I look up.

Bang!
My head exploded outward as blood painted the side of the alley way which was washed away quickly by the ongoing down pour. Brains and skull fragments shot out, leaving the whole back of my head gone. I watch from above as if I was watching a movie of my own execution. My lifeless body seem to collapse with such grace as it collided with the ground making a splash which was followed by a loud thunder clash.

I jump as I wake up laying on my stomach in a heavy panting sweat.
Oh god! I'm glad that was a dream, but it seemed so real. I realize I have led a crappy life and I'm extremely regretful of everything in my life. Thinking about the boy with no name and the second chance I have with my daughter, to be apart of her life, though I will always carry the burden and regret of my boy with no name and for me that is what he will be know as cause I don't deserve to know his name nor do I deserve to name him I will wear this burden as my badge for being a disgrace to the human race and starting tomorrow I will start making a mends for my life.
As I roll over , my eyes are staring down a muzzle of a gun .

Oh Crap

Flash!