I am in Love With You

Birthday

Hi my name is Jazzmen I am 22 years old today,I love music, dancing and going on adventures with friends. Family to me is the most important thing, my mom left me and my dad when I was 3 years old, the only image I have of her is a woman with long black hair who gave birth to me after 3 years of me knowing her she decided to leave. So it been me and my dad for my entire life, he's my best friend and the world most amazing dad. I trust two people in my life my dad and my best friend Jason who I've known since I was 10 years old, he's like a big brother, in fact he's the only brother/friend I depend on beside my dad. Like I said, I love music and dancing that how I Express my feelings, every movement every note help me tell people how I feel.

Today is a special day it my birthday and my dad is taking me out for something special.

Jazzmen. My dad called out. Remember to be ready by 6 pm, work is calling they need my help down at the company, but we are still going out for dinner. I always spend at least 2 hours of my birthday with my dad before I go out with friends, it kinda of our thing, some people call it father daughter time but we don't like to call it that, so we call it our time.
Okay dad. I called back to him. Where is Jason when I need him to keep me A company.

No Jason is on vacation with his family, so I am home alone...why, I need a life. I am sad. Remember to be ready on time, and honey go check my bedroom I left something in there for you, hope you like it. Thanks dad. I replied without even knowing what it was. It my dad he never give me bad gift. My dad left, I ran into his bedroom right in the centre of his bed was a red and black beautiful box, he brought it with my favourite colours. I opened the box, inside was a letter and 2 neckless one with a moon and the other with a sun, I was confused. I searched the letter to find who it was from but no name was write on the envelope, I opened it and started reading it and what I found inside left me with anger and rage.

What the letter say.
    
     Dear Jazzmen,

Oh how much I love my baby girl, you're finally 22 years old. I am so proud of you. It been a long time, but I promised myself on your 22nd birthday I would give you those necklace, they once belonged to your father and I, he gave it me on our first date. I loved your dad so much, but I loved you more and still do. (Jazzmen's thoughts: wow, you have a funny way of showing your love.) I am sorry I haven't been a good mom, I know for sure you don't consider me as a mother and I am not asking of you to call me mom or anything, you can just call me Linda, because I also know I don't deserve your respect. I can't really make any excuse for my decision of leaving I can't also blame anyone for it, I can't blame your father and you're not the one to be blame so please don't blame yourself. It all on me, I had you at a young age I was only 17, I couldn't do anything for you I still had my dreams to accomplish and my future seemed impossible. Your dad did everything for me he helped me to stay by your side, he always told me how much he loved me that he will do everything so we can raise you up together, he always promised me that he will never leave his own blood behind, I can see he never broke that promise he was alway a good man, I was not good enough for him. I know you have grown into a beautiful young lady, someone your dad is most proud of, someone he love most in the world. If he gave this box to you I know he want you to make the decision on your own weather you hate me or like me. I just want to tell you that I am happy too, I have two kids a son he's 3 years younger than you and a daughter she's only 14 years old, hopefully one day you guys meet, they are really amazing, my son reminds me of your father some personality. (Jazzmen's thoughts: why the heck is she telling me about her daughter and son, I don't care, she couldn't take care of one and now she have another one, life is funny.) I don't know what else to say rather than I love you the most in the world.

  Wish you the best in the world, Linda

[Jazzmen's POV after reading the letter.]
Love, she talking about loving me so much, I have seen people express love in many different way, but her way is new. She had me at young age and had dreams to accomplish, I wasn't part of her dreams and her future, damn that hurt, so what she's trying to say is I was holding her back, good to know. But after reading the letter I am not as mad at her as I was before, I understand her but at the same time I don't get her. She have kids, she freaking have kids, why tho?? Like, you couldn't even talk care of one but you can take care of the other ones, how is that fair??...can someone please tell me how is that fair. She loves me, I still don't get the fact that she loves me the most in the world. The entire day I couldn't stop thinking about the letter, it left me with so many questions, the more I thought about it the more questions I had. 5 o'clock pm I started getting ready for my birthday dinner with my dad, it going to be the highlight of my day for sure, well hopefully, fingers crossed. I did a simple makeup, personally I am a simple person. My dad was always on time he was never late when he set a time to meet, he picked me up 6 and went to our favourite restaurant.

So did you like your present? He asked. Look honey I am sorry if you were not expecting that, you have to know that she had her reasons. My dad always fight for my mom, every.single time we start talking about her. Dad can we not talk about Linda please, she had her reasons I know, but I don't understand why you're always on her side. I replied while playing with my food. I am not on her side it just hard on you, I know, I also know that you have questions for her, I can't answer them but what I can do is be here on your side. You and me. He said. You and me dad. I replied. He's always say that when I feel unsure about something, because it have always been me and him since I was 3. It alway make me feel safe. I got you a gift honey. He handled the gift to me and kissed my forehead. Happy birthday. Another envelope. I said. Don't worry it not another letter. I opened the envelope inside was a plane ticket to Korea for 3 weeks. I look at my dad with a surprised face and I start crying. Awww, daaad, you didn't have too. I needed too, since you were a 14 you always wanted to visit Korea I am helping you fulfill that dream, you're old enough to take care of yourself, it time for you to fly. Dad. I hugged him. I love you. I love you too, now go out in the world and fly...but don't fly to far away from home. Never. I replied with confident.

Sorry for a first long chapter, hopefully this chapter help you understand Jazzmen's personality and family life. Next chapter coming up. Byeeeeee✌️✌️